Hey guys
Recently, I have felt that I no longer enjoying going out with friends. I feel like I find peace alone. I was largely friendless for the past couple of years and went through a painful time where I was all alone and had nobody. My family consists of narcissists who never understood or supported me and instead I became a mockery for my pain.
Anyway, I had virtually zero real friends and a few acquaintances with whom I hung out sometimes. Maybe I went out 4-5 times in a year. The rest of the year, I was completely alone.
Initially, I used to feel bad but now, I feel okay. I no longer enjoy going out with friends and even meeting them for lunch or dinner seems like a chore to me. I have a set routine where I go to work/study at uni from 10.30 till 7 pm and then go home. Reaching home, I do skincare, haircare and relax. By 11pm or sometimes 11.30, I go to bed.
This is my routine after work/studies and I feel that going out to meet friends is just a waste of my time. I also don't really enjoy spending time with them.
However, upon introspection I do feel that if I have or had a boyfriend, I would enjoy doing activities or going out with him. I have been talking to a guy and going to see him is what truly makes me feel good.
However, meeting friends and going out with them no longer interests me.
Recently my friend suggested that we should go to the seaside and while I was open to the idea at first, I finally started to get second thoughts about not going.
I wrote about this on another forum but the commentators said I'm not normal.
It hurt.
Is this not normal?
