Im not afraid to lose my boyfriend anymore?

[ItsMykolaJenkins]

It was all of a sudden and for the silly reason i guess.

We went to a store and he was talking and kinda pushed me while moving his hands a lot.

I said:"be careful , im here you know. why so rude, I like when you are tender with me and give me hugs and kisses"

And he kinda laughed and said:"sorry babe its just i was with my friends all weekend and thats how we talk and punch and push each other".

... oh really?

And he hugged me by my shoulder.

Thats when I though, I dont know why:

If he breaks up with me, Id let it go. won't cry, won't beg, won't talk... just Ok... no problem.

Before i always wanted to please him and do stuff he likes and try to talk things... now I realized I dont care.

To have or Not have him in my life... doesn't make any difference anymore.

Whats wrong with me?

[chevy1]

yeah a started not guving a shit after what he did to me i went through therapy cause of him now that a dont give 2 monkeys for about loving him again or loosing him without never being with him

[luvstoned4him]

There's got to be more to this story ☕..

Us he not treating u well?

[ItsMykolaJenkins]

He is weird
Acts weird
Was ex heroin addict
Was inprison because his ex was crazy
I suspect he talks or still meets her after she destrpyed his life
He is moody af always changing moods
Not stable
I supported him as nobody ever did
He loves me because he never had such amazing woman in his life
And what do i get?
Sex twice a month... and some laughs, yeah nice sense of humour
Nothing else. you know... i rralized he isn't giving me nothing valuable in retorn of me basiclly fixing his whole life and maning a homeless junkie into pretty wealthy trader
Its fucking crazy

[luvstoned4him]

@Asker he needs to get his act together, get clean, sober up and find a stable job..

Have u told him how it makes u feel?

If yes, is he willing to change?
because if not, you can't go on like this otherwise soon your health and happiness will be affected

[ItsMykolaJenkins]

He threated to break up
Since he thinks he can't make me happy when i start any rational convo
He has job, his salary is twice as mine now
He is doing good
Only spending on alcohol and maria and some coke... sometimes, when im not around

[luvstoned4him]

@Asker sounds like he is not quite matured. He wants to break up, I would call his bluff. In the end, I really you can do much better

[ItsMykolaJenkins]

Im getting tired of his bs
I feel he manipulates me and uses me sometimes

[luvstoned4him]

@Asker yea men do that most times but you are stronger. I always say if you are not happy about something , talk about it and if he isn't willing to compromise, well you already know what to do. Life is toooo short to be anything but happy

[luvstoned4him]

@Asker thanks for mho

[ItsMykolaJenkins]

Your welcome
The guy is a piece of shit
Said he is sick, can't meet today
Dis t show up to work
Says he is puking
And i organised a trip for us, inviting my cousing and everything
I mean he ruined whole weekend for me
I look like a clown now cancelling everything and need to think what excuse to tell my cousins and that all the dinner and whole trip is cancelled

I told him go to the doctor he said he won't go because he is afraid is something super serious, like cancer or smth
What he does, apparently, is smoking crack and thats it
And never going to the hospital
Crack stop puking... but can you imagine the damage he is doing to his body everytime he does that
Im so tired... he did this to me a month ago... and now again... and again and it never stops
I never can rely on him or make plans

[luvstoned4him]

@Asker it's alright if he's genuinely sick, you would have to cancel but what am hearing is that he had this happened before and didn't go to the doc?

[ItsMykolaJenkins]

Exaclty
He just smokes drugs

[luvstoned4him]

@Asker ok, it's clear that you two have different interests and are heading to different paths in life. It would be best if you just broke up

[Calamityjane]

You have self respect. He's a immature jerk. Leave him and save yourself!!