everyone always thinks someone else should care about me, someone else will like her, someone else will be with her, but nobody ever wants to be that someone that’s there for me. Everyone always seems to think it will be someone else.
everyone thinks I’m good enough for someone else but never for them.
not just love relationship but everything in general.
everyone has people they care about, who value their time and vice versa, but nobody seems to care about me, my time, or my efforts.
I’m always there for my brothers but if at any moment I need something, they can’t be there for me and even get mad if I suddenly don’t have enough time for them. Anything I ever did for them becomes irrelevant the moment I say I can’t do something for them.
for example I’m always babysitting my nephew but if I EVER say I don’t have time to do something because I’m watching him, then my brother becomes defensive, attacking in words, and threatening saying things like “fine I’ll just go find a daycare for him so you can have all the time in the world to do all the shit you need to do that you can’t do because you watch my kid”
what’s the need for all that? Hurtful words because I simply state I don’t have time sometimes? why not help out a little so that I can have a little more time?
I had a boyfriend, he dropped me like im nothing and doesn’t care if im sad. I told him I don’t have friends, we can at least stay friends so that I can have someone to talk with or just vent when I have nobody to talk with.
someone else wouldn’t need to beg for friendships. I have zero friends.
my mom, she just wants me to find someone so I can leave her alone. everything I do bothers her. She always sounds annoyed by me, I don’t just feel it I see it on her face, she even looks at me with disgust at times.
some people have charisma, what do I have?
starting to feel like I have some bad aura, a bad omen or just something about me that nobody likes
