So we’ve been together for 6 years. Living together for 5. We’ve been talking about marriage and proposal for a year now. However he did not propose.
Yesterday we had a serious talk about it. To sum it all up: he said that he loves me and ring doesn’t mean anything, marriage is also just a formality. I kinda feel hurt by these words, I feel so dumb, I feel like he was dishonest for the last year when we would talk about marriage - he never said that before. Then he said that after marriage he would expect me to change my last name. And I don’t want to do that. Then he said that then there is literally no point of getting married.
I’m so hurt that I’m thinking of leaving. I know that to some extent he is right, however I expected different answers. Now he feels bad about what happened and reassures that he will propose soon since it’s important to me. But I’m not so sure I want him to do that anymore. I wanted this ring from his heart not because I want it.
I don’t want his last name because it’s not random. It’s an ugly word. It’s stupid to take it and pass it to kids (bullying fs)
Our goal for now: we are starting couples therapy next week. We’ll see how it goes.