I make this mytake due to some request. You can think about it whatever you want if you are going to read it. Think about it like fiction, like dream. I don't know.
It'll make me very nostalgic, I'll make it short, I believe I begin to cry.. [It was in times when gods and godesses lived together with other creatures. (Maybe it even wasn't in this universe I've no idea.) Me was a high-ranked soldier, a swordsman, a god, to whom almost no one could have been compared in abilities and power, one of the strongest. On one day I met my match. We saw each other from a distance and already knew that this battle won't be like the other fights. We knew that this one will decide about our destinies. In the middle of the fight we suddenly in one breath transformed our bodies in such that can make love. And like low creatures we began to indulge in physical love accompanied by the spiritual unity of gods. It was only one day and night. On next day we met again.
(Intermezzo: The whole campaign of both armees mine and hers was about finding some artefact on which the exstence of the world depended. We were convinced we have to preserve it. They were convinced they have to destroy it.)
Both armees one in front of another. And in one moment everything was lost to us, so we thought. She held the artefact in her hands. And some two from our armee shot it wasn't necessary, it was pointless because the artefact would be broken anyway, but they shot, they did. In the same moment she eliminated the artefact. But nothing happened, the world, anything was there as it was before. The two were pale, dismay on the faces, I wanted to kill them but I didn't, they were soldiers they reacted like soldiers. I ran towards her..., only to see her die. I took her on my hands, I felt that something is not right, I was crying something like "you are a goddess, it's impossible! You can't die so! You just can't! It can't be why you are wounded, you are a goddess..." And she smiled at me and only answered to me "it's not your fault, you should forget me forever and you aren't allowed to resurrect me. It's not your fault, I want you to be happy, I want you to carry on with your existencies, forget me, find others you'll love. And promise me you will watch the world."
(I don't want to incude any pictures, but I have to in order to post.)
And then she was no more. I could have rescued here, if only I was faster, if only I had reflected those blasts. But I was stack as stone because in the same moment she broke the artefact.
How wrong we all were about it... Later I have investigated that her sole existence as goddess, the core of her being was linked with existence of this artefact. I got to know after research that the moment she broke it and was killed she vanished from all the realms. I got to know that what she did was the only way to preserve the world. I got to know that I can't resurrect her anymore because she wasn't in any realm and ceased to exist in any world, was taken away from the circle of life and death of all worlds. I got to know that she sacrificed herself forever to keep this world safe.
And I can't forget, only if I were faster, if I were there. If I would have reflected these blasts she could have live on at least the one life she had and maybe we would have found a way to let her live with me all the lifves. And in all the lifes since then despite her request for me to love someone else, to be happy, I couldn't. I couldn't forget it and forgive myself despite her last will. And I feel that somewhere, somewhere in unimaginable place maybe outside of all worlds she watches over me. And maybe some day, somehow, in some way we will meet again.] It made me cry now for real. It is my burden probably forever. I can't let go.
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You don't even know how to correctly define the term "God" and yet you claim to have been a God in a past life. lol. This is rich.
I already wasted 36 years of my life believing in one false god-man, I'm not about to believe a word you say.
False Prophet!
Well, you are welcome:) I don't claim to be a god, it'd be hilarious:) Aaand you probably haven't read "You can think about it whatever you want if you are going to read it. Think about it like fiction, like dream. I don't know.". Think about it like my dream. I don't claim anything. Are we good now?
I believe in Reincarnation, because the Greatest Conceivable Being is able to Reincarnate a human if it is appropriate to do so.
However, I don't believe you are a deity, because only a dumbass would demote themselves from being an actual Deity to being a mortal. That's one thing that's wrong with Christianity, which is why I renounced Jesus of Nazareth, after both Aphrodite and THE TRUE CREATOR rebuked me for worshiping Jesus, and also because I read Balaam's Prophecy against Jesus which is in the Book of Numbers, "God is not a man... neither the Son of Man..." (Numbers 23:19).
So I do not believe you are a god who got demoted to being a mortal. That would only cause confusion, and The Almighty would not confuse mortals by demoting an actual deity to being a mortal, at least not on this same planet. That would serve no purpose other than to confuse mortals about the nature of God.
That's what's wrong with Christianity. The Almighty God can already forgive sins just by thinking forgiveness into existence, and this does not violate his own righteousness, it actually upholds his righteousness. Therefore there is no reason for God to become a man and die on a cross, and there is no reason to believe you were a God in a past life, even if you have been reincarnated from a past life, that wouldn't make you a God.
Again, I actually do believe in Reincarnation, and hope to be reincarnated some day, but I don't believe you were any God in a past life.
Got it:) I don't have much to say O_O. Anyway in the end everyone beliefs what they "want to" or were forced to, that's the world for us.
It wouldn't possible for me to appreciate you beyond my words thanks for writing the story and putting your time feelings efforts and I am really sorry if i made you to remember things you didn't wanted to, but I am glad I sidon certain way that knowing that true love in a form exists and you being the Man of Valour inspires.
I have some questions if you could answer for me would be greatful to you.
1. So you are single now?
2. how do you remember all this?
3. what age did you start having these memories?
4. you never had a relationship with any girl afterwards till now.
5. What prevents you the most to move on and have a life you deserve because it was in past you have a new life
1. Yes, I am single. 2, 3 It came in form of spontaneous mental visions. With time more was revealed. Honestly I don't really remember when exactly it began, but I think at age of 16. 4. No, I didn't. Though I tried a bit according to her last will, but I never felt love. 5. I don't know, I don't feel love towards anyone. I keep telling me that I just didn't found the right one. But that might be that the right has gone forever back in those times.
* that the right one has gone
The right ones are hard to find I guess, even though I don't have any past things I am also single but the girls who approached Me I didn't find the connection I never approached a girl but this one girl always my mind goes back to she ain't the beautiful girl as standards for looks but is very mordern
Can you beleive you can fall in love with some one at the age 4yrs it's strange to me basically we were in same school but different classes and later we came in one class but she didn't find the connection what I found in her.
Like she used to come in my Drems strangely once I had a dream that she is sitting in my spot of school bench and talking with me, and when I went to school she was sitting and chatting with her friends on my spot girls usually have biffercated place to sit so boys one side girls one side.
And the whole class teased me to sit at my place which she was occupying i know it sounds childish for me it was innocent love. And that I couldn't any girl more than her
No, it doesn't sound childish at all! It's truly beatiful and romantic. Maybe you both are indeed destined for each other! So, go for it in any case!
if you still can, hopefully
Nope she doesn't give a fuck to me, she is out of my league in ambition, stature, knowledge and status she is single though but not really sure can't beleive Facebook details😂 but she really can so better, for me it's kinda destiny that won't fulfill.
Not so but do better*
It's really sad... Yeah, some people have to live with sadness or knowledge something is imposible and still hope hidden or not.
By the way. The one from my story who really deserves respect and is of Valour is her not me. She did everything and had to lose everything, she decided. And I was just someone who even isn't strong enough to accept her last wish..
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