Why did I dream about my past boyfriend (my first) whom died long ago?

Anonymous

He's been dead for 20 years and I dreamt about him just yesterday. He rarely ever showed up in my dreams.

My dream:

We were both 19 year-olds (that's the age he died) and we were holding hands and walking through a beautiful forest, enjoying our time. Then sudden the sunny day turns rainy, the flowers, plants and roses start dying and he starts leaving. He says ''bye now, you're married, we can't be doing this, move on''. Then I keep saying ''No (his name) don't leave me, no, (his name), (his name). Suddenly I wake up and I'm back to my reality of being with someone I love but was never really in love with... and I'm already suspecting he feels the same for me too. I know I'm not his first option either so we're on the same page on that. I don't care too much.

The dream felt so real. I was back to being 19 again and back with my first. I was his first too. Back to our youthful love. Then the dream had to be over, damn. Why did he show up in my dream?

Updates
7 mo
If anyone wants to know why he died... a stupid reckless driver killed him. He pushed me out of the way... literally taking my place. I'm literally alive because of him.
Why did I dream about my past boyfriend (my first) whom died long ago?
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