Would anyone miss me or care if I died tomorrow?

[dwaunm]

Would anyone care about me, my mother is too focus on my younger brothers and their issues, I'm just a blur in the moment for my family, my brother, who is a Pastor, I doubt he'd care if I died, even if it were at my own hand, you see, I know suicide is set in place to get those who harass you to feel the pain you feel or you leave you alone or both, far better be for me to stand in the way of that. I'm losing too weight, my energy is gone and I don't feel like writing my novel anymore, I'm just sick of my life and I want out, God hasn't been very kind to me, because no one can understand me, I'm sick of this, sucking up my feelings, to make everyone else happy, I'm sick of being miserable, because one of my younger brothers are beginning to crack up mentally, I haven't been back in school in over year, because of this, demonic spirits are chasing me around I feel like, I just got to wonder would anyone miss me or care if I died tomorrow? There are women that are creep out by me, one of my brothers disown me, I feel my mother has phony concern for me, why should I continue living through that? Who cares rather I live or die? what value is my life to anyone I can take hell, but going through this to get to heaven is crazy I wish I was dead! I hate my life, I just can't take it anymore, would anyone care if I was gone? Women are creep out, by me I thought of calling an Escort Agency to pay for dates, my life is in peril, mostly because of my brothers and my mother trying to hold me back! I've tried ending it six times, at 10, 17, 19, 26, 28 and 30, and should have tried it at least the last one. My life just sucks, I can't get nothing right, I failed at Junior College five times! nobody likes me, I doubt anyone on here, likes me. I'm sick of my own self, I wish that I was never born, I wish I was dead! Being dead is peace, no one to bother you, you don't have to deal with all of the annoyances of the world like you did alive, I hate this Cycle of getting up everyday?

You are going through a lot of stuff and should set up an appointment to see a Therapist

You are threatening suicide, but you shouldn't threaten nor do it, you go to hell

There are some folks that care, you just don't see it, or don't want to

[Gemini86]

Hey, do not do this. People care about you. More than you may believe. I have been there. I remember back when I was 17. I was forced into a situation with two guys that resulted in pregnancy. I never talked to anyone about it. I later misscaried, and the guys made my school life a living hell. They turned everyone, and anyone against me. Told lies, and just flat out ruined my life. They stalked me. Everything. I felt like every, and any dark force was after me. I had depression/anxiety. I felt like I had no one. No friends, no parents, no one. I went home, and I picked up a full bottle of pills one day, and I just stood, and stared at the bottle crying my eyes out. I knew that if I swallowed those pills I would be placing my life in the enemies hands. I was giving them the people, the negative energies power over me. I wiped my tears away after that thought, and I thought to myself no more. I wasn't going to allow myself to hurt any more. I found myself a job, found hobbies, and ways to change myself. I prayed, and made prayer, and church an important factor in my life also. You must keep your faith. I also built a support system. I opened up. I finally talked to my mother. I reached out to my family. I came to find that more people cared than I believed. My support system helped me, and I am grateful for the individuals that helped me when I couldn't help myself. I understand that you feel alone, but sucide is not, is never the awnser. When you feel like you can't go on, you keep going. You are important. People care. I look at this post, and my heart goes out to you. It truly does. You remind me of myself 2 years ago. I had tears in my eyes as I read this. What you are experiencing is a test, and you are meant to come out stronger than you have ever been before. I advise you go to a therapist. That may help, and could be a major step in helping you to get the proper healing you need. Remember, you are important, and you matter. You, must stay strong. Stay strong for you loved ones. Stay strong for you.

[Anonymous]

you are loved by people you don't even know. you should see a consular

[bam191]

Don't you dare start asking yourself questions like this. Do you realise what kind of pain you would put everybody through if you just off yourself? As much as it may seem like to you, your friends and family love you, and they would be absolutely devastated if you were to go away, and disappointed if you did it to yourself. You're going to get through the rough patch in your life, and you're going to be better for it.

I've always heard the saying that suicide is "a permanent solution to a temporary problem". You wouldn't cut off your arm if you were having some muscle pain, why would you kill yourself just because you're having a bit of trouble. Tough through it, find a hobby, and you'll find that you're enjoying life again before long.

[Donimyc]

I don't even know you, but I see here what you're going through. If I ever meet you (as long as you DON'T DIE) , I'm sure that there are plenty of people besides the ones around you that can listrn to any problems and will become a friend. Death is never an answer, only an escape

[StickStickity13]

In your life you will always face problems. You may think you're alone because no one broadcasts their problems to other people. You need to address your problems.