Not even when someone close to them dies (they can be sad but not cry, crying is just going to far)
^Ah alright, I see.
First off I'm going to give a few facts about myself, I'm a 32 year old man, a Marine vet, I work in construction, I weigh 235 lbs and am 6'2". I am by no means "not a real man", whatever the hell that means anyway. So you're telling me that I'm not only a "pussy", but also apparently "not a real man" because I cried when my wife was killed in a car accident?
My guess about you just from your statement is that one; you more than likely do not have a very high caliber intelligence, two: certainly have no real sense of what makes a man a "man", and three: probably are an all around terrible person that no "real man" would ever have anything to do with, even if he had half the I.Q. you do.
There's not a damn thing wrong with having emotions, it's what makes you a human being, regardless of gender. I hope you do realize the "real man" you speak about would more than likely end up being a sociopath who would have not only have no problem abusing you, and your children, but wouldn't even care if you died and could potentially kill you himself. Because a person who is like you describe, is not a normal, stable human being.
I really hope you end up finding this guy though, you sound great for each other.