I started a new high school for my senior year and I'm a introverted person, I don't talk much, unless you come up to me, I'm friendly nonetheless, I like talking to people. In the beginning of the year, I never expected to I guess to have any interest in someone. I had this on class with this guy and over the course of the school year we had exchanged looks, waves, and smiles (deliberately trying to see each other in the hallways), shared candy together and he has tried to make small talk, (I complimented his drawing, talked about his favorite show, not much more than that, because I was too scared to I guess go up and talk to him more.
I get nervous and tongue-tied around him to the point of where I feel nauseous. I have tried my way of I guess showing that I do have an interest in him, offered candy, sneaking looks at him, smiling, I attempted once to sit by him and He moved closer to sit by me, and after the first semester, our classes got switched so I only see him in the hallway when I went to my 2nd period, sometimes my 3rd period and maybe at lunch, so this semester we don't get to see each other much and we sort of smile at each other, but lately not as much. We just have this intense eye contact and now I started to get the feeling he had lost interest in me, since he's smiling a little less and I got to thinking maybe I was reading into this the whole time and that he's just a friendly guy. Perhaps all this time I was overthinking it.
Now as I think back, there were so many opportunities to make a move, but I let my anxiety, and shyness get in the way, I realize sometimes when I would walk past him, I wouldn't make eye contact, cause inside my stomach is turning flips and I'm like "oh crap, he's here.. act natural" I would tell myself I would go up and talk to him then chicken out once I seen him.
So the story is today, everything just felt different. School ended and I was walking home and I know him and his friend (the was girl there too) saw me.
I get nervous and tongue-tied around him to the point of where I feel nauseous. I have tried my way of I guess showing that I do have an interest in him, offered candy, sneaking looks at him, smiling, I attempted once to sit by him and He moved closer to sit by me, and after the first semester, our classes got switched so I only see him in the hallway when I went to my 2nd period, sometimes my 3rd period and maybe at lunch, so this semester we don't get to see each other much and we sort of smile at each other, but lately not as much. We just have this intense eye contact and now I started to get the feeling he had lost interest in me, since he's smiling a little less and I got to thinking maybe I was reading into this the whole time and that he's just a friendly guy. Perhaps all this time I was overthinking it.
Now as I think back, there were so many opportunities to make a move, but I let my anxiety, and shyness get in the way, I realize sometimes when I would walk past him, I wouldn't make eye contact, cause inside my stomach is turning flips and I'm like "oh crap, he's here.. act natural" I would tell myself I would go up and talk to him then chicken out once I seen him.
So the story is today, everything just felt different. School ended and I was walking home and I know him and his friend (the was girl there too) saw me.
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Saw me as they were crossing the street, I was walking a little distance behind them and later down the side walk he swung her hand and lovey-dovey like and damn my heart dropped, so we waited at the crosswalked, I looked over there and he ignored me and when it was my turn to cross, I basically high-tailed out of there and sped walked home. Now that I think about it, just looking at my face, you could tell I was. I felt jealous and honestly I have no right to be jealous.. he's clearly not mine.
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I just want to get this off my chest. I feel heartbroken and never felt this way about someone, I've had crushes before and when they hung with another girl, I didn't get jealous, I'm not a jealous person, pretty chilled back and quiet. I just don't know what to do.
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