*So this is basically a rant and getting things off my chest. Feel free to comment with your own experiences if you've been through similar.*
I was with him for over a year. He apparently "loved" me. Yet he dumped me for the pettiest reasons. For example, not clicking like enough on his Facebook statuses. Yeah. He felt "unloved" for reasons like that, even though I spoke to him all day, every day and traveled to see him every weekend and things seemed great in person. Just the other week, he was happy with me.
I was really looking forward to our plans for my birthday as I had a pretty bad one last year. Let's just say I found out some awful things about my family so I was determined to have a good one this year and not think about that. Now I'm going to be miserable again on my birthday.
He often dumped me and yet I kept giving him more chances. More than he deserved. He'd call me horrible and then other times, he'd call me fantastic. He always made a huge drama out of trivial things. He gave me so much stress, yet I still stayed. I know I was an idiot. But unlike him, I can't let people go that easily.
I put up with him constantly playing the victim and complaining about me almost every day. Yet I still stayed. I stayed for the good in him. The good which I no longer believe exists. I put up with so much crap yet I'm the one who gets dumped. And he doesn't even care if I'm hurting, he's going to go out, have fun and forget all about me. I feel so humiliated that he wrote a status about our break up, when I didn't want everyone to know yet and I know he's going to act like I meant nothing and appear all happy to his friends. I can't even bring myself to eat and my heart feels heavy. Happy new year to me...