He was toxic so I broke up with him and I asked him to stay away?

[Fwcheerios]

I loved him so much. But he was becoming so toxic in our relationship. Part of me expected him to fight for us and try to win me back but he didn’t. We haven’t talked in a week. I know I asked him to stay away but it still hurts. I genuinely don’t want to ever take him back bc he cause me a lot of pain and heartache but at the same time he was the love of my life and I can’t get him out of my mind. I don’t know how to handle this heartache anymore. My heart is telling me to take him back but my brain is so tired of that toxic cycle that he puts me through. I need help

[Sorrento-Sun]

Even though it's painful now, just imagine how painful it will be if you did get back together.

Focus on how toxic he was to your life. Then ask yourself which is worse - the pain of living with his toxic cycle of behavior every day, or the pain of not having him in your life. Being with him will cause you endless heartache. It will lower your self-esteem. Cutting contact with him will hurt, but in time, your pain will ease and any happy memories will fade and go to the back of your mind.

Ask yourself what it is that you miss and love about him and the relationship. Then compare it to his toxic cycle of behavior that you puts you through. Is that the type of love you want and deserve? You deserve to be with someone who wants you to feel safe and happy in the relationship.

One of my favorite quotes is "sometimes you have to make a decision that will hurt your heart, but will heal your soul"

It's a decision I had to make when I was in a toxic relationship. Being with him hurt , leaving hurt. But in time , leaving healed my heart and I felt rejuvenated.

[Anemone978]

Don't go back.. he is hurting you... and he doesn't care... in time you will feel better give it 2 months... you will still feel the pain of course but at least by then it won't feel as horrible as it does now...

[Grond21]

Tell your heart that you understand why it feels the way it does. Tell your heart you know it's just wanting the good times. Tell your heart you will be better off finding someone who treats you respectfully. And then take it a day at a time, an hour at a time, 5 minutes at a time. Break it down into manageable chunks, no matter how small. Fine good people to talk to and share this with them, as many times as you need.

I can't tell you when, but someday you will wake up and realize the pain is a little less. You'll wake up and realize you think about him less than you did before. At first you may feel guilty, but then you'll realize that it's okay. And you'll think about him less and less and the pain will diminish. And then a little bit of time after that, you'll be free

[SlothySlob]

For as much as you call him toxic, you want him back.
To me it sounds like he's being a nice person and respecting your wish of not interacting with you, yet you want him to to break that wish and pester you.
Are you sure that you weren't the one who was toxic?
Are you sure that you were the one that broke up with him?

[Guy13]

That was brave of you as so many people hold on and try fix something or someone that is not fixable.

[WhitneySnow]

Don’t take him back. He’s toxic. And I would say this no matter what your toxic partner’s gender was.

[DiegoO]

0 contact. Block and erase his number, and erase chats, erase pictures. If you keep those, you'll not reflect good enough about your decision to leave the relation.

[KrakenAttackin]

You are a hot mess. Chad isn't going to put up with your bullshit so he jettisons you and is probably banging Stacey right now. Your pootie ain't that magical.

[Anonymous]

how long have you known him? how long have you been with him?

[DubiousIntentions]

Go with your gut. It is hardly ever wrong.