I was forced to breakup with boyfriend because of strict parents I've wanted to run away I dont know what to do?

me and my ex boyfriend was secretly together for 2 months and i was caught sneaking out to see him one night and my phone was taken and broke and we was forced to breakup. its been nearly 3 months and i haven't stopped thinking about him i still love him so much and my mental health has gotten so bad. he use to be there for me more then anyone ever has more then my own family ever was and he made me feel truly loved. all my parents care about is what others think. my mum made that clear when she first found out about me self-harming about 2 or 3 year ago now she told me that what is everyone going to think about this blah blah blah. she never bothered to ask if i was okay or check up on me.

my mental health has always been kinda bad but i was truly happy with him and i felt loved and cared about. but because of my family we can't be together. and i don't even have a phone to text him to see if he's okay. i have always thought about running away from home and a really good friend of mine told me i could move in with her. i really want to because that way i can live the live i want to and not with my parents controlling everything i do. i'm 17 and i have no freedom what so ever i'm not allowed a phone i'm not allowed out with friends not allowed a job i literally have no life but if i move in with my friend i can be a teenager i can actually be happy and live my life.

the hardest part is leaving my nieces and nephews i love them so so much and i don't want to lose them but i'm never happy and I've tried to be happy but its constantly a lie and i'm tired of not being happy. And if i move in with her there's a chance me and my ex can be together properly and actually be happy. he was always good to me when i told him about my insecurity's he helped me to slowly start actually liking myself and when i told him about my mental health he was there for me and helped me through it. i don't want anyone but him i could genuinely see us being together for a long time.

I was forced to breakup with boyfriend because of strict parents I've wanted to run away I dont know what to do?
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