What should I do, my heart is broken?

Cass510

My boyfriend of 4 years and i broke up last night before the biggest test of my life. I am currently in the radiology program 2 weeks from finishing. We have had issues with me being jealous and immature but I never cheated or been disrespectful. Anyways, he would get frusrtated that we would argue and have some drama and would always want to leave, he would say" things aren't going to work" or "im done, i want to move on" and I would beg him back everytime. I would beg and tell him i will change and im sorry. each time he would take space and eventually come around and we would move on. But anytime we had a big fight he would always try to break up and i would beg and he would give in. This dynamic created a "i have all the power in the relationship so listen to me " we had great times too but those never seemed to be enough for him to move on from the past. recently we bickered about normal stuff and he got mad and said he's done and we can't fix it this time and he's checked out and wants to move on but still wanted to talk until i finished the program. I told him off and said you wanan leave go, im done. he said nothing. thoughts? im calling his bluff

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5 mo
Also wanted to mention was he said it was ok that we can keep talking until im done with the program so i did for a day or two and we talked on the phone for hours like nothing changed. thats when i asked will we ever work things out and he was very non chalant saying no i can't im done im checked out.
What should I do, my heart is broken?
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