My family and friends think this was probably for the best, I knew some of them missed single me and my family didn't approve of how I was virtually supporting us when he lived with me. He feels guilty I'm the wallet, but I always get frustrated when he says things like "money isn't everything." and thinks about quitting his jobs (which he hates with a passion) when he has only paid for two meals out of our entire relationship (1yr).
I had a lot of things about him I wasn't satisfied with. He said bigot and racial things, he thinks he doesn't need a bank now or ever and that we could share, he promised me things and doesn't fulfill his promises and he clings to me and can't be by himself.
I'm scared of loosing him, but I don't feel like my emotions are right right now to be his girlfriend. I want him in my life, I want that closeness, i want to be best friends but I know just being friends cuts him just as much as me leaving him.
I don't know what to do. I want to try again, but I know I probably will end up feeling the same way unless he changes things. But I don't want to change him, I wish I could just accept him the way he is. He loves me unconditionally, but I can't.
Most Helpful Guy
If the reason of breaking up with him goes back to him being a bumm , a thief, a gambler , a drunk, a drug user then youve done the right thing.
Now if you broke up with him for the sole purpose of him working and not making enough money then my god i wish you the worst in life and i hope you always stay feeling down and dark.
Most Helpful Girl
I think that relationships have a good chance when you share basic things like attraction, values, respect. Many things you will have to work one, like communication, trust, romanticism, sex; things that you can always change and better. You cannot change the attraction because either you have it or not from the beginning of the relationship (I feel). You cannot install new values in the other person because I think it is too late to absorb that at 20, y'know? If he lies, if he doesn't know the meaning and rewards of hard work, if he doesn't give a woman her place... these things you grow up seeing and knowind and therefore practicing, like respect. If he doesn't respect all that you are and you're only his bank that keeps him sane... you're going to end up darkened by his halo. It's not a person that will take you higher and to better grounds, and you know this, don't you?
I think your relationships is more like mother/son, because from what I read I can gather you're his protector, his provider, his refuge, and it will wear you out. If you were talking about communication or trust.. there are many techniques to salvage really bad cases of infidelity or affairs, or what not, but this guy is relying on you, he depends on you and that's why you fear losing him. You liked helping him, but you won't enjoy being his mother. Imagine if you had a child together, you'd be looking after 2 kids instead of one.
I think if he shapes up, you will be in shape too, to be in a relationship with him. If he doesn't change and it's likely he won't... you won't be feeling like you can put up with any of that. You can't just accept him the way he is. It will bother you forever to play blind when you're not and if you think about it, he doesn't love you unconditionally. Love in a relationships is quite conditioned from every point of view.