Dating

Why do I keep getting emotionally only about some people that talk about boyfriends or girlfriends?

I know that I have a problem each time that I am single, I always Focus more about always wanting a boyfriend even knowing that I had 9 ex-boyfriends. I very much dislike when people talk about boyfriend or girlfriend if they are heterosexual. If a homosexual couple doesn't bother me at all. If a person shows a boyfriend or girlfriend a pic. I also get angry but pretend to be happy. Yes, I also hate being single. I am not sure why I am very emotional around my mum and sometimes dad. I got more. Emotional mum. Always told me to listen and didn't really understand. I always think she has always had an energy tone voice for me. Can't seem to Focus on what makes me happy. Yep have tried but it hasn't worked. My grandparents are married , my older sister goes back to her ex-boyfriend. I am the only person that is single as well to my younger sister. My younger sister doesn't care about having a boyfriend. Some of my dad's friends are also married to one of the clubs. Happen more time in real life than on social media. Part of the social media called heat unlocked. One guy said don't go looking for a boyfriend and said to just wait and did say I am already married lol. That also annoyed me. For some reason I can't seem to get past wanting a boyfriend even though I know that I had a worse experience with previous ex boyfriend. I don't know why I like that. I know what I want in a man is are being faithful , have a learning disability , trustworthy , respectful and truthful.
Why do I keep getting emotionally only about some people that talk about boyfriends or girlfriends?
Post Opinion