Dating

I'm not allowing myself to be in a relationship? I'm so lonely, live alone, never invite anyone over, just work and sleep? Should I text him?

He is a friend of mine but I also used to think he is hot. One night in January, we had a few drinks and we went to a hotel and had really amazing sex. He was just amazing.

And then while we were cuddling he told me "Don't use this against me, but this was the best day I had in years. I knew this had to happen. You and me. I feel like this is a movie. I really like you, you are beautiful and hot but I like you much more than that".

He texted and called me a few times after that to go out but I always said I don't have time. It's been two months 😭 I didn't go out with anyone else, I don't think he did either. Yesterday he sent me a cute message and some kisses and I just replied : 🤣🤣🤣 . I think I'm a complete dumbass. 😭😭

And now I'm asking myself what's wrong with me, should I give him a chance. Why can't I be with anyone? Or is it normal? I have been single for more than a year now. At the same time I'm so lonely but I also don't want to give away my freedom and personal space... by the way. I'm 27 and he is 30. Maybe it's not time for me to date? But also I started thinking maybe I will lose a great guy? Cause I'm dumbass hahhh helppp

I'm not allowing myself to be in a relationship? I'm so lonely, live alone, never invite anyone over, just work and sleep? Should I text him?
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