In the meantime of this events, we talked almost everyday, and often found each other having heart to heart conversations.
There have times where we fought and stopped talking, but it was always me one that apologized and began talking again. In 2019 I lost 35 kg and started to look 'sexier' but I felt more confortable with myself.
I see Rodrigo as a closed person, who doesn't let much of himself be seen by others. I always compare him with a tired, old dude because he doesn't like to go dancing, he is serious, not romantic and he himself has a quote on his whatsapp that says 'God, i feel old'
It somehow feels tiring to be around him. He's not romantic, which is something I want in the people i date. I would like him to be jelous, to love without fear, to say things like 'I miss you' or 'I can't stop thinking about you' (only if he means it) But whenever he said something romantic he always masked it as 'something formal' for example:
'Miss Cindy, you are very important to me. Sincerely, little girl' (quoting the Simpsons) And that is the most you could take from him. I feel like if he misses someone or wants to says something, he's too afraid to show himself vulnerable so he prefers to act cold and distant.
Despite all this, I hate that whenever I date someone (I'm not into dating because I not interested) the relationship never succeds because I can't come to care for the relationship. I don't fall inlove and I don't feel like liking them. When I stop talking to them it's something like a relief. And whenever I see people on relationships I wonder, how? how do you fall in love them. And when they declare their profund love for eachother on social media I always look somewhere else as I was looking to a camera (like in the Office) thinking 'lol, ok'.
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As I see it he is just a guy without spice and by not being romantic but you still wished he wwere more and still expecting for him to not be romantic that’s a contradiction, but aside from that relationships are meant as a bond between people so as long as you don’t feel the need for a bond with someone, you either just don’t need a relationship at least for now or either you haven’t found your true partner in life;also humans are created as self sufficient beings both physically amd emotionally so it’s not weird or abnormal that you don’t fall in love and feel like don’t need a relationship;and relating to other people they are either faking or they faulty belive they have found thier love as finding the trie parter is way tok impossible to find maybe even in a lifetime or many;aside from that, I would suggest you take an open minded approach to people and make a wuick filter of people because you don’t need to waste time and peace of mind with people who don’t have potential or some sort of strong compatibility with you , so just be in a state of aware lookout while living nornally and as though you don’t care about relationships!!