So I have a friend who I met on a Facebook group in 2016 (I was 19, he was 18). We talked a lot and I felt like we were really good friends. We're both from Córdoba, Argentina but he lives in a town that's 3 hours away on car. We have never seen each other face to face nor facetimed but we used to send each other pictures regularly and talked once on the phone when he called me for my birthday and talked on discord. When I met him, I had never been in a relationship. And the first year of talking I was like yay! I can talk to him about anything without worrying of getting romance in the middle. Well, I met him on April. By December of the same year he told me he liked me, as more than friends and I remember my first reaction was 'fuck'. I don't remember what happened exactly but I did say something like 'now what?' and we just kept on talking as usual, but he might have felt rejected because at that time I didn't have nor wanted to have that kind of feelings. And thus began a back and forth were when I realized that I liked him as well, he didn't feel like being on a relationship with anyone. Then I started dating a girl (I'm bi and he's always known that) and he confessed that he had been stupid because now he had lost ' precious opportunity' because of his stupidity (meaning that now I was dating someone else, he realized he actually wanted to date me). I later broke up with her and when I thought he wanted to date (half a year after the breakup) and after talking about people I found hot trying to 'get a reaction from him' he told me I could date whoever I wanted because (despite my original impresion) he wasn't in a mental state to be in a relationship with anyone. I also suspect since I had started sending him full body, no sexual pictures he found me unattractive because I used to be fat. Because he once told me he felt more attracted to skinny woman when I confront him about it.
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In the meantime of this events, we talked almost everyday, and often found each other having heart to heart conversations.
There have times where we fought and stopped talking, but it was always me one that apologized and began talking again. In 2019 I lost 35 kg and started to look 'sexier' but I felt more confortable with myself.
It somehow feels tiring to be around him. He's not romantic, which is something I want in the people i date. I would like him to be jelous, to love without fear, to say things like 'I miss you' or 'I can't stop thinking about you'
