Taking the Most Important Decision in Life

[Miyuki28]

So as I finished high school I rushed to the university I dreamt of for the last two years.

This time I was sure about my decision. Nothing could hold me back. Except... not being accepted.

Despite my hard work and good grades my dreams were crushed in moments. Sure, by that time I was used to failure, still it hurt my self-esteem. As I wanted to be a movie director grades didn't really matter, we had an entrance exam, of which I successfully passed the first part, but failed at the second.

So what's the next step?

The best option seemed to be to learn for the next year's exam. If I learned hard for an entire year, there was no way I wouldn't get in. But guess what? I lost my motivation, and got in a depression loop, just to make things better.

A year passed, the exams were knocking at my door, and I didn't manage to get better at anything.

I even started to doubt my decision. Do I really want to be a movie director? Do I have the right qualities for that? Am I talented enough to make money out of this passion?

As I didn't know if I want to be a movie director, or anything else, I started working. I was managing volunteers, a job close to my heart, as I volunteered all my high school years. I gave myself some time to decide about the university I want to go to.

In a short time I came up with ideas of which I still can't exclude any. I want to be a movie director, video game animator, video game streamer and writer. My current level of knowledge doesn't let me decide on one over the other, although I have some experience in each of these fields. I simply don't know what to do, which one to choose. Or rather... I want to do all of them. I don't wanted to choose.

I can find online courses about any of these 'jobs', some of them can be learned just by doing, experiencing.

Unfortunately (as much as I enjoy it) my job doesn't give me enough time to try and truly dive into these activities, to find the one that I could do my whole life and would be enough to sustain a living.

Quitting my job isn't a solution either, because then I won't have money for the courses, or the equipments for these activities.

So, as it seems, the current educational system doesn't give any solution for people like me.

That only means one thing: I'll have to break my way through.

See this TED video connected to the subject.

[dantetheexplorer]

Speaking as a published author/writer, I would say keep your day job and focus on only one of those interests. Few people can survive solely as a writer - even those with middling success. I had to sacrifice a few years of my life just to learn how to write on a professional level - which involved writing at the very minimum 1000 words a day - and I came into that already having a very high level of English (native + 9.0 IELTS). When I say sacrifice, I mean there will be many, many, many weekends where I just sat in front of a desk, writing, writing, writing, to fulfill this deadline, or that deadline.

As I always say to budding writers: there are those who are in love with the IDEA of being a writer. There are those who desire to be a writer above all else. If you seriously want to be a writer, only the latter will do.

Video game animator - you can make okay-ish money if you do it full-time. I'm not sure about movie director and video game streamer - it would seem that with these two, the more popular you are, the more money you can earn.

Whatever your decision is, I would say go after a pragmatic approach: go after your dreams. Make it your Everest. Chase after it. But always be able to pay the bills and take care of yourself - and never depend on anyone if you don't have to. The freedom to do things on your own terms is a luxury that not many have in today's world - if you can have that, you've given yourself a leg up in your quest to go after your dreams.

[AMG63]

It’s definitely who you know and not what you know these days,

See if there’s another course or short course you can do, that relates and will help you get into the course u want in the future. So you are still progressing with your study and goals but just a different way.

[lavarule]

Sounds like you know you want to be in video production somewhere. Go get a job shooting or editing. Shouldn't be that hard to find especially if you are hungry.

[Anonymous]

Good luck