Boyfriend used to spoil his ex rotten? not so much the case with me...

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i don't expect him to buy me everything and give me money. I'm not a mooch or anything but I can't help but feel bad knowing he spoiled his ex rotten. bought her everything she wanted, and bought her things he knew she wanted but didn't even ask him for, took her on vacations, gave her lots of money. he also did this (but not as extreme) with another girl he KIND of dated, but it was only an online/texting/phone relationship. he never met her in person, she was friends through his cousin and lived out of state. but, he would buy her expensive presents and send them to her surprising her. I am kind of jealous, I am insecure so this kinda makes me feel like I'm not loved as much as them or I'm not as pretty as them. I saw their photos and they aren't that attractive at all, so in my messed up brain I started thinking "maybe I'm uglier than them" even though I am very much above average looking, but still it made me think that maybe I am delusional and I'm really ugly. I told a few of my close friends this and they said I'm crazy. I don't know what I am doing wrong, I'm not the kind of girl to demand things because in my eyes I'm worth nothing, yeah I'm a good person, very loving, sweet, pretty, but I still feel worthless. I've hard bad relationships in the past where guys treated me like total poop so it made me get VERY down on myself, sorry if I sound like a whiny cat lol. but guys, what do you think about this? what could be the reason he does this (or doesn't lol) girls? =)
Boyfriend used to spoil his ex rotten? not so much the case with me...
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