Feel like so alone, no one stand by my side, What should I do?

[Jojojojojojojo]

Struggling day by day, barely survived. i feel empty and exhausted.

I found most of the time, when i need sths from my friends they would say yes and turn down what they promised to do at the very last moment , leaving me helpless and unprepared.

My family isn't helping at all instead brought me more pressure and responsibility. spreading negative energy almost every single day. Sometimes i questioned what life is for.

Maybe most people have better friends , family and life than me so they don't think it that way...

so.. i got palpitations from anxiety years ago and always dream about bad things that happened in the past..

Hard to get rid of them. Maybe there's a way.. any recommendations?

[Anonymous]

Maybe meditation and trying to focus on positive things in life even when almost everything seems negative when one is feeling down, still try to see the positive in things..

I know it's difficult because I'm pretty much the same way.

I fee extra sad today because it's my birthday and I'm alone. I talked with nobody at all. The person that says he's there for me didn't even say happy birthday to me. He forgot.

I have nobody. So I understand that when I say think of the positive things in life rather than the sad negative ones, it is hard to do because I'm going through it myself. I don't even meditate but if you can find the passion or the will to do it, it seems that would help.

I resort to coming on here and answering questions to kind of blurr away my sadness and not think about it. but after I'm done I go cry sometimes hehe.

My life sucks! but even then I try to stay optimistic.

I would say find someone to talk with, but even I find it difficult to find someone to listen to me even online. As soon as they hear I'm sad and low, they kind of bail on me lol if I found someone anyway. It's always happens but if you can find someone that doesn't bail, it helps to talk it out.

also find a hoby

I realize that when I do something I like, I tend to forget about all the sad stuff that's happening in my life, or rather that is NOT happening in my life. I don't even know if anybody needs me, likely not. Makes me sad but then I tell myself it doesn't have to be that way. I can find something that I like to do in this life and not rely on if someone needs me or not.

maybe find a song you like in a different language and try to learn it :) I don't know.

I hope you feel better. 😁🌞

[Jojojojojojojo]

Sorry to hear... But Happy Birthday. Hope u will feel better by time too.
Yea most of the times , i also tried my best to be positive i deleted my old facebook to escape from toxic schoolmates i used to have. (i thought it was a way) i'm sorry that i going to get it detailed..
Just recently lots of things to deal with and i met my highschool ex boyfriend hanging out with his girlfriend few days ago so much memory brought up... some nightmares , trauma , self doubts. i just finished stalking my other schoolmates ig accounts. there's so much things i missed. A girl i been close with, got married and has baby now.. the feeling is so complicating.. anyways... a sharing..
Hobbies.. that's a good suggestion. i like art and language a lots. Do u like them too? i also sometimes watch youtube videos / movies / shows to make myself not thinking the bad things i been though.
Wish i can share more things about them with u :) May i ask how should i call u?

[UniquelyBasic]

The best thing I can offer is telling you to go to therapy. Seems like its a lot of stuff to unpack and get help on. Better to have a professional help you do that.

[Jojojojojojojo]

i tried it a couple of times. the therapist told me i have depression and anxiety but i guess it isn't serious.

[FunkyMonkee]

Join the club!! I've been alone almost as long as you've been alive!!

[Jojojojojojojo]

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