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How do I deal with the fact that I have missed out and going to keep missing out on many things?

I am 21 F and I suffer from PCOS, Swyer Syndrome, and a hormonal disorder. These three conditions together may be the cause of the development of masculine features in my face, thereby making me really ugly. I even tried to commit suicide when I was 16.

Because of my face and hirsutism (something that often comes with PCOS), I was severly bullied throughout my time in school. This made me distrustful of people and despite craving other people's company, I always stopped myself from trying to socialize with others because I was scared that people would make hurtful comments about my face.

My face and hirsutism have caused me to miss out on many things in life and I am going to keep missing out on many things because it's going to take me a few years to save enough money for my face surgery. I even had to put my dream training program on ice just to get a job in order to make money.

My facial hair already being tackled with laser and I shave my entire body every day but this everyday shaving practice inevitably leaves my sensitive skin with a nasty razor burn. I guess I have to choose between the devil and the deep blue sea. I either accept the excess hair or learn to live with razor burn until I get the hair all over my body removed permanently.

But I have gone off on a tangent:

Hirsutism and my face have ruined my best years of my life. I'll be probably 25 by the time I have solved all my problems, i. e. have undergone face surgery and have had all my body hair removed.

I apologize if there are any mistakes in my text but I am upset right now and this upset state is dulling my brain.

How do I deal with the fact that I have missed out and going to keep missing out on many things?
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