How will I get found by a man who will abuse me?

[Anonymous]

I want to be abused. I have very low self esteem.
I want to be physically abused. I am already very 'meek', shy, quiet, dont talk, rarely stand up for myself, and am a follower and people have called me nice and subservient. At my age i realize this is just what i am. I have tried to have self esteem. It was probably a ruse many a time.
I can't lie about how valuable i am to others, how i deserve x y and z, or any other phrases you hear women say a lot.

Maybe i crave abuse at times. People dont care. People dont value me. Thats fine. Im done complaining about it. I accepted i am dirt on the side of the road. I have some limits that i dont plan to let a man cross. But other than those things i take seriously... I have very low self esteem. I tried being "loving myself" and i was cocky and quickly humbled. Which is good. I dont want to or like feeling cocky at all. I want a husband who humbles me. When people paise or give a compliment i often feel mortified, want to hide, am in disbelief, and just can't agree with them. Except maybe if its about my natural appearance. I was told growing up by my parents i am the opposite of ugly. Peers made fun of my looks though and that ruined my self esteem too. But i can always remember my parents valuing my appearance, and so if i get a complinent about a natural feature i have, i can appreciate it. But if it has anything to do with my style, brain, work ethic, or something i did... Its not good.

[TheMajesticKing777]

And why exactly do you feel so low about yourself? Because people say it?

I can say I'm the richest man on earth, do you believe me? People always say things, our part tho is to know what to listen to and what to ignore, every single person should feel good about themselves no matter how they look because they have a life and a soul and life itself is precious, it's extremely valuable and if you are listening to people simply because they have a tongue and lips that let them pronounce words the way they want too, then you aren't thinking straight, think of yourself in a third perspective for a second, are you a bad person? You know you aren't but you'd rather believe what all these other sinful imperfect human beings have to say rather than your own mind, that is a mistake, you should stop doing it, what exactly do these people mean to you that these words are so important to you that you eat up all their shit like spaghetti, don't be so naive and believe opinions, everyone has them and you will live a miserable life by letting yourself get pushed around by words.

[Asker]

If everyone says it

...

[TheMajesticKing777]

Everyone has been calling me a bum or made fun of me cause I was kicked out of school and they believed I would get nowhere in life and even tho these people had no hope in me I'm still going to prove them wrong and open my own business, it all depends on how you take it, it is always possible to make something positive out of something negative.

[Asker]

Do you get tired? I don't have any positive people in my life.

[TheMajesticKing777]

Sometimes I do but I don't let the negativity fully overcome me cause that will do nothing for me besides make me negative as well, I ran with a negative mindset for a while and all it brought for me was negativity I then changed to a positive mindset and it brought me positivity, you will never fully please people, humans are deep down selfish, you have to focus on pleasing yourself even when others look down on you because people take their insecurities and failures out on others and try dragging others down with them and by holding a negative mindset because of how they treat you ends up doing just that, just fo what you want to do even if others look down on you for it, at the end of the day you only get older.

[Asker]

I know... I just get negative regardless of trying to be positive. Ita hard to not go there when you get tired of life.

[TheMajesticKing777]

I know but you gotta be strong

[Anonymous]

There's no problem about you being shy, quiet and subservient. In life, there a are natural leaders and natural followers. Obviously, you are a natural follower, that's nature and it's Ok. You must not have to feel bad because you are not like other people, you should feel proud about it. The only person you need to feel good about is yourself. If you injoy life with a different lifestyle it's fine. Accept yourself and embrace it. As long as what you do makes you happy, satisfied and comfortable. I'm sure there is a man out there who will understand you, give you want you want and will keep you safe. Best of lucks.

[Asker]

Thank you thats very nice to hear

[WhatTheHeckkkk]

I can refer you to my ex, but then again, I don’t want anyone to be abused… But I highly suggest you seek professional help, it’s sickening just reading this.


Trust me, you don’t want to be ACTUALLY abused, no one does, unless you’re a serious psychopath. You just want someone to put you into your place and be dominant, like a fetish.


Please just get help. You don’t want to be abused.

[Anonymous]

Men abuse women all the time without even being asked for it. That’s the easiest thing u will find from a relationship with a man.

Now, love, that’s hard to find, since men are generally uninterested in women. That’s where the abuse stems from.

[lucas262]

Don't rush to paint us all the same color of shit love. Some of us had good raising.

[Kaneki05]

Then you need therapy. It's healthy to not want that, so right now your stirring off track.

[Klinklins]

You can try to improve yourself. Seek for help if needed

[dorksided1]

Seek a mental health professional

[Iron_Man]

You’ve got to be kidding me

[MountAverage]

Are you getting professional treatment?