I used to get compliments because of my looks and how kind and warm I am. I'm not saying that out of being arrogant I'm sorry in advance.. but somehow now that I have been in a relationship for over a yr and it's my first committed relationship and I'm 30 years old as I was nicknamed like "Jane the virgin" at home and in my circle. but I'm not that not inside the box kind of woman as I do have fun and do fun like girls I'm just not liberated or into flirting or hookups.
but after a yr having a relationship with the man I love and I want to be with this man but I'm so hurt when his reason why he loves me is because I'm beautiful and I'm kind.
in my mind why not love me because it's me he wants to be with , why not the reason why he loves me because it's me the girl he want to spend life with as he ask my hand already a yr ago.
but why I felt bad about his reason? in my mind I worry that what if he find a girl more pretty than me or kind also so he let me go then? I'm not insecure I'm so confidence in my physical looks and how nice and kind I am as human. but I'm so hurt that I can't stop crying for days. I don't know how to talk to him I can't even say whats on my mind as I felt bad thinking bad of him. help me plsss
