What's a girl to do?

I met this guy while on a business trip last year and have been hanging out whenever I'm in town ever since. I've gone to great lengths to hide my feelings for him, playing all sorts of games and acting like he meant nothing to me because I convinced myself we were just having fun. But the reality is I'm super confused. Sometimes he seems interested and other times he's super distant, and aside from flirting and making out every now and then and one drunken night where we almost hooked up, nothing beyond that has happened. I've tried to pull away, but every time I see or think about him I can't bring myself to do it. I've never met a guy who could read me so well, or whose face lights up when I laugh and he looks at me like no one has ever looked at me. I recently told him I was going through a difficult time not thinking he would care and was surprised when he was actually supportive, but then the next night when I saw some other girl flirting with him (he's never flirted with someone else around me) I got super jealous. He could tell I was upset and kept asking me what was wrong and finally, I just blurted out that I had feelings for him and have for a long time. He immediately brushed it off saying I meet guys all the time when I travel and he's no one special and work is my only priority (only because I've made him think that). I didn't want to argue with him so we just left it at that. I ended up texting him the next day telling him how hurt I was by his reaction and that my feelings were valid and very real. He knows how guarded I am and that telling him all that wasn't easy. He called me shortly after I sent it, but I had fallen asleep and now it's been a week and he hasn't called or texted since and I'm scared to reach out to him, but obviously curious what he would have said. Should I see what he has to say or just leave it and let him go?