For months, I've been bewildered by the mixed signals he's been sending – intense glances, choosing to sit near me, and often choosing to be just close observing me. His actions have been a bit awkward and unsettling and he never talked to me. After around three months of this behavior, we finally engaged in a conversation, during which he asked for my LinkedIn profile rather than my Instagram. While I found this unusual, it might have been because I showed him some posts on LinkedIn. Through my own investigation, I discovered that he's in a relationship with a girl who frequently uses affectionate emojis on his public posts, he shared a story of her saying you are mine (he didn't attempt to hide their relationship by making his account private).
This revelation has left me feeling heartbroken and unsure about how to proceed. I understand that perhaps he sees me as a friend, but the timeline seems odd – does it really take three months to develop a friendship, especially given the closeness he displayed? He consistently chose to sit beside me, except when I wasn't around, he'd take his regular seat for other commuters. I decided to distance myself and avoid him, yet whenever he sees me now, he greets me with a casual "good morning" and then follows my lead, sitting next to me and initiating conversations. I find myself feeling both sorry for her, his girlfriend, and conflicted about my own emotions. I had thought there was a mutual interest, but her presence prevents me from pursuing anything. While I won't compromise my principles, I can't help but feel sorry for myself, for my feelings for him I was also disappointed because even after learning my full name, he never extended any invitations to connect on my social media accounts. I lack significant influence or a strong network that would prompt him to observe me (for those who might suggest it's for professional networking)."
