Awkward encounter with ex-- feeling uneasy after this?

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I’m struggling with my feelings. I (F-25) dated my ex (M- 28y) for close to a year, and I found out from his cousin that he was cheating on me. So, I broke up with him and he asked me to meet him after a month of no contact. I agreed, and the night ended badly. He admitted to cheating on me, and I had insulted him several times before parting ways. After this night, he tried to have some friends add my social media and start messaging me and when I confronted him about this on text, he said he didn’t know about it, which in some cases I found hard to believe.

Anyways, fast forward 1 year and 1 month after that night, I ran into him 2 nights ago from today. I was sitting at a hookah lounge with a friend, and I look to my right.. and to my surprise, there he is. I tried to walk to the bathroom which meant walking directly in front of him/ past him, and he was on his phone looking down. When I came back, his cousin (who told me, and my ex who still doesn’t know it was the cousin) was staring at me. I noticed quite a few times, my ex was staring at me and he even rotated his whole back and head to look at me, thinking I had left but when I stood right there, we made awkward eye contact and he immediately turned back around. My friend even said that he kept his head still but his eyes wandered in the direction we were leaving. I don’t understand why things are so awkward between us? I know we left on bad terms but I figured we could still be adults and just say “hi” in a respectful manner even if we go about our lives. I don’t expect us to get back together (even though, I still care about him), but I feel like I cannot move on and date other people for whatever reason. And it’s just bothering me that things were so awkward 2 nights ago. Any thoughts or opinions on why he’s acting like this? And if I should break the ice with him on text or leave it alone?

Awkward encounter with ex-- feeling uneasy after this?
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