I know I'm not depressed, so whats wrong with me?

[Anonymous]

for the past 2-3 weeks i've been feeling very "off"

i feel very stuck and lifeless (like a robot)
- i have no drive to talk or hold conversation
- i feel like i'm struggling to breathe at times, like i can't catch my breath
- regardless of if it's something really sad or really sweet i feel like crying
- it just feels like a daze and i feel really alone

I've never been like this before and since i don't really know whats causing it I don't know how to fix it.

BUT i'm not feeling hopeless helpless or anything negative towards myself so I severely doubt its depression, so what's going on with me?

[starryroof]

Hey there! Something's wrong with you for sure. Your problems don't have to be something really clear to spot, for example, a break up. They can be something that's really really deep inside you or something that happened a long time ago, but started to bother you again recently for some reason. Or, maybe, you're just melancholic. As far as I know, melancholy can be caused by no clear reason! Anyway, it's not like me, a random user from GAG who doesn't even know your name will be able to spot your problem! I highly recommend to see a therapist.

[Sex_Panther]

Actually depression does not always have feelings of hopelessness, helplessness, or negativity; many times depression manifests as apathy ( or in your case, "Do Nothing I Used To Syndrome" ) but alas you're actually 3 weeks too short to have clinical depression and be diagnosed with it since it's never happened before. Anyway, it's possibly related not necessarily to an event but a mindset, any major or minor shifts in the world, shifts in diet, shift in mindset, perhaps a loss you didn't think was that big, etc.

[Asker]

thats the weird part, i have a really great mindset and I'm usually very understanding when it comes to the ups and downs involved in life. The only issue I can think of is my relationship with my mom, but we've never had a relationship so although it bothers me, it's nothing new.

[Sex_Panther]

Any recent events whatsoever? Any changes in medication?

[Asker]

nope i've never taken any medication, the only "change" is being home for the summer and not being at school

[Sex_Panther]

That's a massive change in environment.

[Asker]

you think so? I never thought it was, hmm maybe it is. I mean I go home every summer. It's probably important to point out that i go to school out of state, so when i go home for the summer i don't see any of my friends, but i usually hang out with my sister and her friends though.

[Sex_Panther]

All it takes is something even slightly off between the transition to spring apathy OR a state of boredom, disinterest in the pattern, and even a quiet yearning to not change environments at all. It happens often enough.

[Asker]

my psyche has never been that fragile, why would it suddenly change now?

[Sex_Panther]

It's not matter of being fragile; after all this is all new to you so you've stumbled across a new trigger (thus the confusion) so it is not a sign of weakness but a sign of self-discovery.

[Asker]

but whats the trigger?

[Sex_Panther]

Well, that's why you're here, we're sort of guessing at it.

[RBT-RS]

Haha! You have no idea what robots feel like.

No, but seriously, I would get an appointment with a therapist, as those could be early indicators of depression or some sort of other mental decline. Also they're more trained than anyone on here would be.

[Asker]

the thing is, is that from what i've seen and read i don't have any of the mindsets of a depressed person. I'm very optimistic, very ambitious, spiritual, self aware and very into self discovery, and I eat well and workout daily (actually its been a week since I've exercised, b/c i just got my belly button pierced)

isn't a big part of depression about being sad, feeling bad about yourself, and feeling worthless?

[RBT-RS]

Not really, no. Thats kinda the catch with depression, that people assume they dont have it until they feel like that.

[demonology]

how do you know you're not depressed? you are listing a few symptoms of depression. you don't need to check off every box on the symptom list to have it.

[Asker]

because i don't act like or have the emotional problems that i've seen with depressed people. My guess is that it's early pms. Like i told the others i'm always (and even now) an optimistic ambitious spiritual self-realized person. I'm happy with myself and 90% of my life, i just feel really off and sluggish at the moment and don't know why

[legalboxers]

maybe its a bad phase, problems at work? relationships? if you need to talk.. Im sure we can help you. Im following you..

[Keyspirits]

Hit yo boi up. Yo boi will change yo life in a million ways c: