Could I be developing anorexia?

[Anonymous]

Ok, so I know anorexia is like a serious disease, which is why I'm getting a little freaked out right now. I used to eat a lot. Like I used to be a really big eater with a tiny body. But now I find myself growing extremely insecure. And I'll be honest, I HATE my weight. I think I'm fat, even though I'm not technically obese. I remember I used to eat so much when I was younger but nowadays I'm just never hungry. I used to never eat at school, and my friends would get really mad at me. And if I would eat at school it wouldn't be very much. Sometimes it was because I didn't like the food, and other times I just didn't eat. I just always told my friends that I ate a heavy breakfast so they'd quit shoving food down my throat. At home I do snack on junk food sometimes, but I find myself eating less and less. Some days I go without eating dinner and lunch. Most days I don't eat breakfast, but I almost never ate breakfast either way. I know I'm not anorexic as of right now, but I'm afraid I'm becoming anorexic. Tbh I have a horrible body image. I look at myself in the mirror so much, I think it's a little obsessive. I think my parents, especially my dad, are starting to catch on also. What should I do? Am I just being paranoid?

[kxera]

Yea, I think you could. I developed it at one point but didn't want to admit it. I think mine was more of EDNOS rather than Anorexia Nervosa though. I was naturally skinny no matter what I hate, but I didn't develop a weird habit of starving and binging. I didn't really feel hungry though, but I did pass out once. It was so embarrassing. I hated my weight back then too; all of my friends and I would complain about how fat we were on a daily even though we were all super skinny. Two of my friends were both double zeros and still thought they were fat and I feel like I felt pressure but it really was just a bad habit on all of us. I think they actually starved themselves but I didn't hold myself back from eating until random times. I get urges to starve myself on and off still but I just try to focus on being healthy right now.
I can chat anytime if you'd like.

[Asker]

Thanks!

[kxera]

What you should do is anytime you're hungry but feel conciously, eat fruit! Fruit has little to no calories so you can eat pounds of it and not gain if you stay hydrated and are active a bit.

[Lyndsielee666]

anorexia isn't you not being hungry... i've suffered from it since i was nine and i would so much rather not be hungry ever than be hungry and not want to feed myself because i like the pain. maybe your metabolism went down. it also sounds more like body dysmorphia as apposed to anorexia.

[Asker]

Thanks for the advice

[_Natalie_]

Hey there that sounds all too familiar I urge you to get help as soon as possible. even if you don't think its that bad urge on the side of caution its better safe than sorry. For 3 years my body image and eating fluctuated similar to yours where id be normal and eat quite a bit. However, despite being thin I would despise my body and eat so little and exercise till I would faint or be sick yet at the beginning it wasn't even about weight just about having some control, thais wasn't the case for long, and I denied having a problem. Since I was diagnosed as year ago (17 years old now) its taken me a almost an entire year to get even close to recovery for anorexia nervosa, at my lowest weight my body started shutting down and I was at high risk for heart attack with a compromised immune system and low blood pressure etc. yet once I started getting healthier physically I became sucidal as the depression and severe anxiety that resurfaced with the weight gain was so intense and consuming, because of all this I had to drop out of school for a year and lost contact with many of my friends as I basically dissapeared. Please please please learn from my mistakes and go and talk to someone to help you get this under control before you go down that path. Trust me its going to feel amazing to be able to feel comfortable within your own body as well as navigate your relationship to food. What really helped me with my body image was just to be completely neutral, I do not have to love my body or even like, it simple have to maintain having no opinion. However, If I do happen to find myself fixating on my body in the mirror or just obsessing, i just have to shrug it off and move on (distraction is the name of the game pretty much hahah) go watch Netflix , walk the dog, or whatever the fuck you do just something to take your mind off it. But yea I wish you the best of luck and you got this! :)

[Foxxtrot]

FORCE FEED. It sucks to do, but you need to eat. I used to eat 1-2 bags of flamin' hot cheetos per week cause I thought I was fat. I ended up being around to 100lb mark and my family had an intervention for me. I took an extreme path to overcome my eating disorder, but it worked. I got rid of all my mirrors... if I could see myself, I would hate myself. I would force myself to eat at least breakfast (most important meal) and dinner. I had to treat myself when I would eat enough. "Yay, go me! 3 bites in, after 10, I can watch a TV show." Find a hobby. Painting, hiking, play an instrument. Start a collection. Find something to deter your attention from constantly nagging yourself. Good luck.

[Asker]

Thanks for the advice

[Emogirl4543]

Calm down. Force yourself to eat a heathly amount. Do not be concerned about your deit unless a medical professional diagnoses you with obesity. You are freaking beautiful and don't forget it.

[Emogirl4543]

*diet

[Asker]

Thanks for the advice!

[Anonymous]

go to a doctor!

[Lyndsielee666]

if she's not under a certain weight the doctors won't do anything. just an fyi