I want to do an Ouija board to connect to my mum?

I lost my mum in 2001 (please no sympathy, it is not what I'm looking for), for several years now I've wanted to do an ouija board because I need answers from her. I've fully hit adulthood and there's so many unanswered questions and my mind won't be put to rest unless I get the answers. My dads a medium and he's made me promise I will NEVER touch an ouija board, its the only reason I haven't done one; I don't want to betray him!
I've just watched Insidious chapter 3 and ironically its basically the story what could happen to me if I invite negativity into this world (it won't be as dramatic). If I did invite negatives my dad and his medium friends will have to bail me out, I've just realised how stupid I would be if I did do it. Obviously with my dad being a medium I 100% understand the dangers and disadvantages of doing it, there's approximately 1% chance my mother would actually come through. Its a massive wake up call for me to keep well away from them, I personally think the writers/producers of Insidious chapters are mediums and they are well aware of the different planes and its like they're sending a message out to people not to touch ouija boards.
Does anyone else find it weird how its basically what I had planned and its given me a wake up call not to do it?
I'm honestly freaked out by it right now :|
I want to do an Ouija board to connect to my mum?
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