Have you ever had a dream you were dying of an illness?

[Anonymous]

I feel paranoid. I have dreams every few weeks that I'm dying. The first dream, what I remember is going to a doctor appointment him sticking a needle in my breast and then coming back and telling me it's gotten worse and I probably only have a few months. I go home to my daughter and husband. I just stand their watching her play and watch cartoons and my husband reading a car magazine. I start crying he looks up and I wake up.
Couple in between somewhat the same.
The last one is my husband laying in bed with me. I'm afraid to go to sleep because the doctor said I probably won't make it through the night. I sit up trying to stay awake then think this is a dream. I try to wake up but I can't. My husband tells me to lay down because he wants to hold me. I'm dizzy and getting really tired so I lay with him as he plays with my hair. I keep fighting sleep but I can't. The closer I am to falling asleep the air feels thicker as I try to breath. As soon as I pass out I wake up to morning. I still feel like the air is thick so I sit up gasp for air and fucking lose it. I bawl. My husband wakes up and trys to calm me down. I do. I tell him what I've been dreaming and he doesn't think it's anything.
Now I'm checking my breasts all the time but they're big. I'm worried I can't check them well. I feel bumps all the time. It could be paranoia. I feel ridiculous. I've never had this fear until I kept dreaming it. They seem so real.
I feel ridiculous going to a doctor to get my breast checked over dreams.
Anyone go through dreams like this?
I want it to end. I'm terrified when I'm awake now. I keep thinking 'am I sick? am I going to leave my baby?'

[detlef]

These dreams probably are just a manifestation of general anxiety in your life. Time to take a long, calm look in a (figurative) mirror and see what might be the trouble. It's unlikely to be anything physical.

That said, why not have a general wellness visit with your doctor, and mention these concerns. You can just say, "I had a feeling I should have things checked out, especially in my breasts. Just a feeling." Any good doctor will respect and honor that.

In the meantime, don't worry. The worrying itself can be very harmful. Relax. Consider practicing mindfulness techniques. Maybe start an aerobics or zumba class. Anything to divert your attention and promote wellness and quality of life.

I don't think you'll need it, but: Good luck. :)

[detlef]

Thanks sister. Take care of yourself. And take it easy. :)

[Nivekian]

Don't feel ridiculous about going to the doctor. You could be having prophetic dreams. I get them all the time. Even if prophetic dreams are bs then you're better off safe than sorry, right?

[Gorgorello]

Um.

Go to church and maybe you'll feel better.

In all seriousness it is normal to feel this way, but you have to think about it like this, Would life really make sense if you could live forever? Would you really want to bear living on and on forever and dealing with life?

Like I said "Death has got to be easy because life is too hard" I'm not saying you should go kill yourself, just enjoy your life and try to make the best of it, because life always must come to an end.

^.^

[Asker]

Not at 24. My point is why the Hell am I having these dreams. I was never scared of death before. I didn't worry about having an illness it just started out of no where.

[Yellow_]

No, but of other things.

[Robb76]

God I really want you

[Asker]

Huh?

[TimeSplitters123]

Yes the illness was feminism.