I hate myself so much and I don't know what to do. Help?

[RebeccaC]

I'm still living with my parents, I can't seem to keep a job, I'm too much of a moron for school, there's no job that will pay enough to live on my own, I'm not good at a single thing in life. I have severe ADHD. Who knows, I might be depressed. I feel. lile I have to be good enough at everything I do otherwise it's not fun and it makes me hate myself more. Everything I do I can never get better at. I feel like everything is just a waste of time and that everything will take a decade to get good at. I'm at a dead end and don't know what to do. I'm running out of money, I can't control my impulses which leads to more self hate. I can't do this anymore but there's nowhere to go. I'm just too stupid for everything, and nowhere pays enough to even survive.

[Sonorous]

That's how I feel tbh. And my hyperacusis condition makes any setting with people just unbearably loud. But people don't see this as a disability so I'd probably still have to find work somewhere relatively quiet if I really needed a lot of money quick.

[Sonorous]

I think in these situations, when we're overwhelmed, taking a calm step by step approach to things is preferred. Plus when people see how you're trying, they'll probably cater to take off pressure. And if they don't, then ofc those aren't good people to be around. They're taking life too seriously in my opinion.

[Anonymous]

I have ADHD too. And I feel dumb all the time too. I get it. Everything feels like a waste of time because you keep giving it your all and still nothing good comes of it. I am in a similar situation. I failed a job interview and I felt like such a waste of life. I think you're probably smarter than me though. I am going to college hoping for the best but I don't know if I'll be successful. I think you have better chance then me.

[RebeccaC]

I would like to go to collage but it's so expensive I can't pay for it. What would I even go for. I have ideas but my parents keeps giving me more ideas that are completely different and it's overloading

[Opinion Owner]

I get to go for free because of financial reasons and I just got a scholarship that helps pay for it.

Yeah go to trade school. College is a waste of time in my opinion. I wish I would have just gone to trade school.

What are you thinking about doing?

[RebeccaC]

If it's trade school. I really don't know. First thing comes to mind is welding but I don't even know if I'd be good at that. I can't even buy the equipment for it. If it was normal school my first idea was chemical engineering. But I'm probably too stupid for that. 2nd was accountant, and 3rd was a nurse.

[Opinion Owner]

I use to think like that too. But I found I was good at math, but I am bad at talking to people and writing skills.

You can also become a CNA the nurse assistant. It's a 3-6 month course. There's also HVAC and plumbing.

[RebeccaC]

Lol. Hell no. Not a CNA. Those people clean up the mess people make. They crap themselves or need help going to the bathroom a CNA is who cleans that up. I'd throw up

[Opinion Owner]

Haha you said nurse and they have to help with that sometimes. Maybe an X-ray tech might be good for you. You can become one at a 2 year college.

You're a nice person. I really want you to succeed.

[RebeccaC]

There's so many options... I just don't know what to do. Makes my head feel likes it's about to blow

[Opinion Owner]

I ADHD too and I hate sitting in front of a computer all day. It's really boring for me. Maybe hands on work is more for you.

[MysteriousT]

Take it easy on yourself and try starting from somewhere. I'm sure you'll be surprisedh how some things may change in life.

[RebeccaC]

But how. I need to change it now. Not next week. Or next year. Now. I can't live with my parents forever. I don't think I'll beable to live with myself much longer

[MysteriousT]

Haha that made me laugh. Jokes aside, why not start from doing doordash or something to make some capital first and then using that money to make it even more?

[RebeccaC]

What do you mean? I doubt I would make very much money with doordash. And with gas going up, I'll barely make any money.

[MysteriousT]

You're wrong. Those who go the U. S. from other countries usually start with such jobs so they can make quick money. It's not a lot but will definitely be enough to make you live by yourself. Just be aware of what you spend and you'll be good to go. In the mean time you could work on a specific skill that'd make you money with time but that's the next step.

[RebeccaC]

Like what? I wouldn't even know where to start. I would have to commit every ounce of myself to a single thing to do for the rest of my life. It's not a easy choice

[MysteriousT]

Like programming or something advanced that has potential to make money. It's not hard really, you already can make a lot being in the U. S. Take a deep breath and start with doordash and you'll figure out the rest on the go. I can give you more ideas if I get to know your preferences and what you like etc

[RebeccaC]

The only things I like won't help my future. Model painting and digital art won't help. Nobody hires a colorblind digital artist. I like chemistry I guess, I'm okay with math. I not great at anything. I'm Meh at a lot of stuff.

[RebeccaC]

I'm just too dumb for programming. My brother is a programmer and he's been doing it for 8 years. I would need to be doing programming sense I was 12 like he did.

[MysteriousT]

Then you can do something that involves chemistry I guess? Or you can be a math teacher?

[Summeroflove]

Therapy might help. Look people will judge you no matter what you do. You have a purpose God created you to fulfill in this world.

[Twalli]

I live with my parents. My girlfriend lived with her's until she moved in with me and my parents.