I downloaded tinder to see if my boyfriend was on it because I had doubts, found him. Granted there was old photos, year old to like 3 years I’d say.
Called him, we talked about it, he said “I forgot to delete it”&“I was looking for friends because I moved”. He deleted it for me. He doesn’t have that much friends where he is.
I asked whats hindering our relationship and he said all of this stuff like he’s afraid of us not working out because we’re not spending much time together and about insecurities he has, like trapped with mental health issues and depression.
Had another doubt, downloaded bumble, found him on it, updated his work on it. He said the same about friends. He deleted it for me.
We talked, he hasn’t cheated, talked, met or hooked up with others.
He still wants this relationship.
I’m putting a trigger warning here about online s*xual ab*se.
I’m super emotional thinking about how I opened up to him that night of being afraid of everyone leaving me even him, I expect it at this point, I’m used to it.
I brought up about a person, I was in love with him years ago, when I was only 18 and he was 25, he begged nudes of me, manipulated me, recorded me without consent, ghosted me, blocked me and then deleted his account. He knew what he was doing.
Every word I tried to say, I cried every sentence, I literally broke down in front of my boyfriend.
I said I was scared from the start if he would do that and he said no he wouldn’t he never use me or abandon me. He comforted me and swore twice in front of me that I’m the only one and he only loves me. He said “I don’t know why you like me”&”I’m just stupid”and I said I love you because you are you, we talked even more after that. Later on he cried because he saw how upset I was and we talked about everything and wanting me and this relationship. I love only him and I just want him…
I want to check the dating app messages because I’m scared if he is cheating. What are your thoughts on this?
