Am I guilty for feeling upset that my friends said they will still be friends with her?

[Anonymous]

So 1 month ago, I ended up going to jail for a week due to having a suspended license and marijuana in my car. uncomfortable counter with three grown woman who ended up raping me with cleaning tools taking turns for 20 min. left me naked, took my clothes, took my food took my bedding, so I was sleeping naked on my period on the corner of the jail hard to believe but thats Clayton County Jail. My best friends picked me up and so i told them. there was a trip that was coming up that time and it was a trip to Maryland with my friend group while we were in college. But I didn’t feel so happy I didn’t wanna go because of what happened and my dad just passed that month. It was just too much but I decided to go it was hard to be as exciting and happy as them. One day i stayed at the bnb and one other girl who i was rooming with for 3 years at college. I just told her i dont know why but i did. She felt bad she said if she wants her to take me to the doctor or clinic then she can but i said no since i have no insurance and i dont feel comfortable doing it in another state and i said “dont tell anybody i just feel embarrassed that it happened i don't want nobody to know right now” Few hours later i was drinking and had a mental breakdown with my rape and suicidal problems i was just blurting out in public lol but i just felt so hopeless. So my friend said lets go to a urgent care i didn't want tho because what i said ealier but i was too gone lol. Comes to find out while i was there the girl i told.. told everybody at the house while we was at the clinic. Saying “Natalie got raped “ does anybody wanna come with me to go down there?” “You? Do you?” To the rest of my girls. Its 10 girls only 2 of my friends i told then her …she said she had no justification ….. so why later one we go that girls house the next day i said i dont wanna go and they say “natalie dont be miserable” i feel like they are taking her side. Thankfully the other girls told me and still help me ❤️

[MasterKS]

wasted life! sadly it won't sound fun to me, be serious!

[Asker]

Thank you for your opinion…. there are people who are out there has gone through worst than me I’m thankful that God has protected me through these hard times and to come. Telling my story for support or opinion was a bad idea crazy as it is. It could be your daughter or son that could be in a similar situation and seeing that comment you just pulled I know you would be upset as a father if you saw what they said. If you have nothing nice to say don’t say it all because my wasted life could change I have hope it’s hard but I have hope. Be nice to others and treat others you wanna be treated. A simple yes or no would suffice but I hope you have a good day and God bless.

[MasterKS]

@Asker i am just raising you did wrong stuffs!

[Asker]

I get that people do wrong things I’m only 21 not an excuse but i can learn and grow from it I have time to fix that situation. Nobody is perfect. Me driving with a suspended license because that was the only way for me to commute to my job I don’t have enough funds to Uber everyday and back and give my dad his needs and take him to the clinic visit him stay with him every other night I will sure risk it. ONLY ME taking care of him it was just me and him in GA and Yes I had weed it helps I don’t smoke a lot but it helps me I’m stressed out. So me doing all these wrong stuff is the reason that I got raped like whattttt lmaooo I have my reasons what I did what I did. Not right though. when you have kids or even a close friend or family member that did something that didn’t harm or killed anyone and get sexually assaulted or raped which I hope that never happens. You will know then what I mean.

[MasterKS]

@Asker are you showing your frustration or warning me?

[Asker]

No I’m just concerned but i guess you could say that’s a warning but in a good way. Meaning saying these disrespectful things could come back and turn on you like I said I don’t want that to happen but God is in control not me. I don’t really mind you saying all that I’ve heard worst I just wanted you to really think about what you said to me and see how would you feel if somebody said that to one of your close ones.