I premise this is more a quick thought rather than a "proper" myTake, so it won't take long.
Recently it has been a rough period with my girlfriend, a bit because of my work issues and a bit for her jealousy and clingyness.
Many people here rightly suggest to break up, and it's something I admit I considered doing, but I just can't do that. First, she's too content with this, and it wouldn't be right for me to take this away from her. She had an incredibly hard life and I love her, and she deserves to find happiness. Second, I wouldn't be capable of loving and being loved by another woman who's not her.
I have already refused other women for her because while they seemed to be better fits or were more attractive, they weren't her.
I can't see myself with anyone else - a woman can be intelligent, beautiful, a good fit for me and I can be a good fit for her, but if she's not her she's automatically rejected and I can't bring myself to develope romantic feelings for her - it'd be useless so I wouldn't even try, and it'd be dishonest to lead on false hopes. That's what I told them. I take extra work and projects not only for my career, but also to amass money for our future. The future for her. Anyone else is excluded from this equation. If I break up with her, so I'll do with what I'm building. It's for her and no else, if she'll not get it then I'll happily burn the money I amassed, all the work I did and the future projects - they'd have no more value to me.
Because she's the one for me.
When she's not screaming or being jealous, or hitting me, she's genuinely kind and thoughtful.
She takes the time to listen to me and reassure me when I'm worried or stressed.
She's really sweet and can be really caring and it's obvious she really wants to take care of others and be taken care of.
For example, like she's being right now - making coffee, asking about how the night went and idly chatting, while I'm writing this.
Probably the mistake is mine for being too permissive, or sharing too much on here.
Maybe I'll get more assertive, stop sharing so much here, or quit this site entirely, I don't know.
Thank you for reading