My boyfriend and I are together for almost a year but recently separated as he went abroad to finish with his studies. I am supposed to meet him in a week but I felt very lonely and alone and the distance hit me hard, so I got cold-feet and called him and opened my heart that I am having doubts if I should go and visit him and if we should break up. I felt that he was being distant the last couple of days and given the lack of physical interaction I thought he lost interest. He was very shocked and surprised to hear this and said that I have a tendency to make rush decisions and run away from things instead of staying and trying. I told him that my anxiety is getting in the way and the distance makes it hard for me. He said that he can give me all the re-assurance in the world and asked me what he needs to do to help me get over my anxiety. I told him that I need to hear from him that he loves me and thinks of me sometimes as he isn't particularly expressive but he said the fact that he doesn't say it doesn't mean he doesn't love me and that he's been thinking a lot about me these days. We talked for an hour and went through all of our feelings, I explained to him why I thought he wanted us to end it and he said that he told me a 10000000 times that he wants to be with me and I am a wonderful girlfriend and that he doesn't know what more he can do for me to believe him. He asked me not to give in my negative thoughts and try to distract myself. I will go to meet him cause he asked me to and that we can talk about it in person, and to stop thinking so much about our relationship and feed my anxiety. We told each other I love you many times on the call but I could hear the disappointment and confusion in his voice as he really didn't expect me to share this with me. I am myself very closed person that doesn't communicate needs or emotions properly. How can I show him more love and appreciation and light so we get another chance?
How to approach this long distance relationship?
