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I've been talking to this guy for almost one year and he turned out to be the first guy ever who shares a lot of things in common with me. We both did have a special dynamic with eachother that made us feel close and happy yet we did not enter relationship for obvious reasons and well.. he's going overseas for his college so..
he was kind of nerdy and logical , philosophical just like myself and also very very kind, That kind of a person who's always straight forward and has no filter , at the time i met him when he was going through so many of his own demons, he broke up with his ex and he had a very traumatic past that still affects him (child neglect and SA)
But we tried to help each other in so many things he helped me to change my mindset and helped me through my anxiety and my panic attacks, he was that kind of a person who'd take his time and research stuff for me and plan things out just to help me out through things , he'd talk to me for hours and encourage me to fix my relationship with my dad and etc.. he truly had a positive impact on me we both did, he told me that i restored his faith in humanity lol
We would get along a lot and recently he could not stop saying things like " oh we would make great couples", "i wish we weren't traumatized so we could end up with eachother" , " man we should just live with eachother we're sooo compatible" and he also started telling me "i love you"s but assured me that it's not in a romantic way so ✌🏼i don't have to worry✌🏼and he also got a bit more jealous than before but never told me straight forward because it'd be awkward , he once told be that he feels guilty for not being able to involve himself romantically with me due to his trauma. I mean for odd reasons he's so prone to being guilty and overthink everything!
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