I've known S for years, and I think I'm in love with him. He was my exes friend but they're not friends anymore. Me and S got back in touch recently and I went to go visit some friends about a week ago. I was going to stay the night with my other female friend, G, but we went to the bar and ran into S and another friend of mine. We all drank together and had a good time and by the time we were leaving, S asked if I would come to his house instead. So we all did. We drank a little more there and S made a move on me and we had sex. It wasn't awkward or anything, and I know we've both had feelings in the past, I'm not sure if he still does or what. But I think we both knew it was going to happen.
G had to go home so I went with her because that was the plan. I told S I was probably going back home (5 hours away) before he got home from work and he was still drunk but was sad about that, hugging me, asking me to wait till he got home, but I said I couldn't. In the morning I realized I was way too tired to make that drive and S said I could stay the night with him. Nothing happened that night, we just went to sleep and I left in the morning. For the past few months, he'll message me every morning "have a good day" and I message him back but he only replies occasional so I think it's just a habit. We haven't talked about what happened that night. I'm not sure if it's because he's nervous or just doesn't care and it's not a big deal to him, so I don't wanna bring it up and make it a big deal. It's also difficult with the distance. But I love him. Back when we used to be really close and hang out with my ex, I could've sworn he was in love with me too but that was a couple years ago, things change. I just want to know if I should confess to him, and how, or if that would ruin our friendship.
G had to go home so I went with her because that was the plan. I told S I was probably going back home (5 hours away) before he got home from work and he was still drunk but was sad about that, hugging me, asking me to wait till he got home, but I said I couldn't. In the morning I realized I was way too tired to make that drive and S said I could stay the night with him. Nothing happened that night, we just went to sleep and I left in the morning. For the past few months, he'll message me every morning "have a good day" and I message him back but he only replies occasional so I think it's just a habit. We haven't talked about what happened that night. I'm not sure if it's because he's nervous or just doesn't care and it's not a big deal to him, so I don't wanna bring it up and make it a big deal. It's also difficult with the distance. But I love him. Back when we used to be really close and hang out with my ex, I could've sworn he was in love with me too but that was a couple years ago, things change. I just want to know if I should confess to him, and how, or if that would ruin our friendship.
