What is this? A situationship? A hookup? Should I explore this or put it to rest?

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my coworker and I hooked up a few times and now I’m confused. At the beginning of summer I got a job at my local grocery store. I am now a senior in high school and 18. A week later this guy that just graduated from another high school close, now a freshmen at community college, also 18 got a job there. His first day we talked in the break room and were curious about each other. I had a hunch he found me attractive. He wasn’t my type but for I was drawn to him. we said goodbye awkwardly. A few weeks of work during summer pass and we talk occasionally about work or mutuals. Then I found out he hooked up with girl in my grade and that he dated one of my friendly acquaintances a year ago. Nothing wrong with that. It’s cool and I didn’t care. Then a few weeks later, we saw each other again in the parking lot of our job and he asked for my snap. He asked me to hang, I couldn’t. More random convos at work. My last week of summer I was at a party with some friends and we ended up snapping him that we wanted to hang with him and his friends. We met at a mall at about 11 and had awkward convos. At the end of the night his friends and mine left us behind and we kissed. Then we hung out a few nights later and made out multiple times in different places. Now we see eachother at work ALL THE TIME and always chat with one another. We are always standing super close, I catch him staring at me often, we smile at eachother, and he always initiates things constantly. He keeps asking to hang. I can’t cuz my parents are strict. When we talk we never break eachothers gazes. We snap constantly. I can’t tell if he is a player or if this is just nothing to him. I can’t tell how I feel, I just know I want him to kiss me again. there is no rule against coworkers dating so that’s not the problem. I can tell when we talk that there is something there but I can’t tell if it’s lust or something deeper. He has enough kiss counts to be a player so I don't know.

What is this? A situationship? A hookup? Should I explore this or put it to rest?
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