I'm very emotional and affectionate inside but my partner thinks I'm cold bc I'm afraid to show feelings although I want to show. Like i dont want to seem needy. Something from childhood. I'm lowkey protecting my emotions bc I'm afraid of he won't value them. And when I try to show them I feel kinda angry and annoyed all of a sudden like i betrayed my own feelings/myself. I have to be really sure about his feelings before I can show any. Once he asked me "what do you think about what's between us" I couldn't say "Despite our closeness, being stuck in the flirting phase doesn't make me feel valued. I don't like uncertainty. I want more intimacy" and I said "I don't know I've never thought of it" bc i didn't want him to think I need his love and attention. And yesterday when I told him I miss him, he told me I don't show much but he also doesn't show much.
by the way sorry for my English. I'm not a native speaker...
