I stole my friend's man. How can I forgive myself?

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I just feel I should confess on here because I feel really bad although I don't talk to my friend anymore. How do I move past this?

2 years ago, I was in a group of friends at college in our last year. There was this one girl in our group, A, and she's always had a life I wanted. I was dealing with really low self-esteem at the time, and I always felt she was the pretty one out of our group, who was a model and I was jealous. I already had a boyfriend at the time, but I was losing feelings for him even though we'd been together for years. I just didn't feel the same.

Well A started getting involved with this guy in our group, C, who I always found attractive but I didn't really see him like that because I had a boyfriend. But even though they were texting and going out on dates, I started to want C's attention bc I felt somehow validated if he would give me attention as well as her. So I started flirting and texting him behind her back. It was first as friends, then I started flirting with him more. I wanted to break them up and be with him. I asked her how things were going with him so I could see if he would end things. But she didn't know I wanted him. He ended up breaking things off with her because I was sending him flirty/sexual messages and he was responding, and she didn't know why. I then started dating him, broke up with my ex and he is now my boyfriend of 2 years.

I'm glad I got together with him because we've been together for awhile. But I feel bad for how it happened. I no longer talk to my friend group but how do I get past and make peace with what I did? My boyfriend doesn't know I did this, he thinks I just happened to fall for him. But I planned to steal my friend's man and it worked.

How do I forgive myself?

I stole my friend's man. How can I forgive myself?
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