DUMB DISCLAIMER! Yes, ik I’m being an idiot which is why I need to fix it lol.
My crush D messaged me suddenly a month ago asking if I still liked him, as I told him last year (when we still weren’t that close) “I like you, but I know you don’t feel that way so I won’t try anything”. During that time, I was very mentally unstable and looked the part; in his words, I “wasn’t being myself”. These past few months, we became very close: he invited me over a lot and we’d sleep next to each other even home alone. I stayed over to the point where he said his dad thought we were dating as well. So, when D suddenly asked I froze and said “no”. He said he was just checking and we teased each other as usual. In that conversation he was sending old pics, so he started sending screenshots of flirty texts with other girls.
Since that day, we haven’t talked as much as we did before. The conversation usually ends with me unlike before, even when I say things that typically engage him. He’s shown me all his art (mostly sentimental/romantic/abstract stuff), but rejected my request for his new private art account, saying he’ll accept me “when I’m ready”. He hasn’t invited me over since that time as well.
I get that my doubts are all due to me denying that I liked him. In fairness, what was I supposed to say? I felt like he didn’t like me so I didn’t want to make him feel weird, and his immediate response seems to show that I made a safe move. A part of me wants to tell him how I feel because he values authenticity. At the same time, it’s been a few weeks and I could just leave things be.
What do I do? Thanks for any help in advance!
