Why have I lost interest in everything I used to be interested in?

[Wade12345]

I mean, I'm still trying to find a woman to love, but other than that I don't much care about anything I used to care about, and can't change myself. I'm trying to write a book and also trying to invent some board games to sell to game companies to make a small profit, but I have the problem of losing interest and becoming bored with the effort.

I really, really need friendship with a woman, and that's lacking in my life and has lacked well forever, but the honest to God truth is none of them ever give me a chance. It hurts so much being a lone for literally 42 years, and it gets worse every year.

I don't know what I'm supposed to hope for anymore. I've lost the best years of my life that most people get to be lovers and newly weds and stuff, but because no woman ever wanted anything to do with me I never got those opportunities in my life.

[XHopelessRomanticX]

I think you may have a little bit of depression. And it’s okay to be sad. It’s okay to grieve for the things that never were and that the things that might have been but will not be.
It’s also okay to live a life that’s not like everyone else’s. It’s okay to be in your 40s and never married, plenty of people are in the same boat. Some get married late in life, some never marry at all. Neither outcome is a bad thing.

Your best life is not behind you, it’s still in the here and now.

[Wade12345]

Thanks, I guess.

The two know-it-alls on the other thread I made did little other than falsely accuse me of wrong-doing and even falsely accuse me of "worshiping the devil". lol.

[XHopelessRomanticX]

Lol. People can be weird.

[CoolCatMar1]

Maybe you have a trauma? Anything traumatic has happened?

[Wade12345]

Not besides every woman I've ever known rejecting me for their own vain and usually hypocritical reasons.

I've never been raped and wasn't the victim of child abuse or anything like that.

[Guy13]

Sounds like someone's life is being reordered. It could be winter blues or depressive episode too. It might be a big combination.

[jshm2]

You're getting old, sunny.

Need to re-evaluate your goals, before your midlife crisis hits you.

[Wade12345]

My only life goals are marriage and worshiping God, and avoiding being whatever manner of drunken whoring sinner every other man is, and I don't need to re-evaluate that.

[Julia1244]

Sounds like depression

[Wade12345]

Yeah, well, being alone for 42 years provides a rational reason to be depressed. There is no pill to cure being treated hatefully by everyone else in the world and especially being rejected by every woman I ever try to talk to. In fact, few women have ever even been my friend, even when I honestly tried, they usually didn't want anything to do with me. I suppose there were a few exceptions here and there, but they'd never date me even if they were otherwise nice to me.

I am a 42 years old Virgin, and I'm pretty sure I'm going to be a 49 or 50 years old virgin someday. Earlier today God finally told me what this is about, and it amounts to the woman he wants me to marry simply is not old enough nor financially stable enough for marriage yet, and he's making me wait on HER and only her, and if I don't wait on her he's going to take it out of my hide, literally.

Anyway, none of htat explains loss of interest in everything or just boredom. At this point I'm used to being alone, sometimes too used to being alone.

[Julia1244]

Maybe being single is something that’s meant for you not everyone finds a spouse

[Wade12345]

"It is not good for the Man to be alone. I will make him a helpmate to be with him."

[Julia1244]

Yea but maybe got wants you to be single or maybe pray about it and got will help you find you’re mate

[Julia1244]

God ***

[Wade12345]

Honey, do you understand I have prayed about this until I am blue in the face? I used to pray about it as much as 8 hours per day for years on end at one stage of my life.

Most other people calling themselves some sort of "believer" in God or "a god" don't actually give two shits what the Real God wants, wh ich is why so many marriages end in divorce. They date the wrong person for all the wrong reasons and they marry the wrong person for all the wrong reasons, and they call me a devil worshiper when I call them out on their BS, and they falsely accuse ME of doing something wrong because I'm single.

Did you know Jesus, for you christians, he commanded his disciples not to remarry if they got divorced. All the "christians" in the United States have on average dozens or even hundreds of sex partners, and they get divorced and re-marryed (contrary to the law) 2 or 3 or 5 times in spite of claiming to be a "born again christian" and in spite of claiming the Bible is their "favorite book".

They claim to beileve in God, when in reality they know nothing of God and wouldn't recognize God if he was yelling to them in their right ear audibly.

I am not meant to be alone. The problem is there is literally one woman in the history of the world who is willing to love me, and she's going to be half my age by the time God prepares her to meet me.

[Julia1244]

Just have patience god wants to see you’re faithfulness

[Wade12345]

It's a bit more complicated than that. Unlike all the other fakes who've ever lived, I really am a True Prophet, and God's law forbids me to marry a whore or a divorced woman. I am required by LAW to marry a virgin, and she is REQUIRED BY LAW to prove that she is a virgin.

The truth is God holds everyone to that standard, but th etruth is 90% of people claiming to believe in God have never read anything in the Old Testament of the Bible, and even if they did they willfully disobey it anyway, which is why the divorce rate is so high among so-called "christian" people in the western world today.

[Julia1244]

Why not divorced or virgin what if that person is a widow and wants to remarry I think you just being to picky that’s why you still single

[Wade12345]

No. Read the Bible. Read the Law of Moses. A priest or prophet is forbidden to marry a divorced or whore and cannot even marry a widow. He is required BY THE LAW OF GOD ALMIGHTY to marry a virgin who must be able to prove that she is a virgin. The Truth is God will not allow me to marry anyone else even if I somehow tried to do that and even if that woman was somehow willing.

IN the Bible, widows are supposed to marry the brother or first cousin of their original husband, or his closest relative who is available (see Ruth).

All of these "christians" with 2 or 3 or 5 divorces are the real devil worshipers, since they disobey God continually through their lust and adultery and whoring, but that woman and that man on that other thread had the audacity to accuse me of devil worship and even being "demon possessed". She literally stated that women have been rejecting me because (according to her) I am demon possessed..

When I go to a place of worship, I do not walk in the sanctuary like I own the place. I arrive an hour early and find a hidden corner somewhere and pray for an hour and repent of everything, no matter how minor, that I might have done wrong since the last time I was there, and I pray for the pastor and congregation in every way I can think of and pray for advice about any social situation which might arise while I am there, etc.

Then after people start to arrive and the hour is up, I go talk to whoever I know and socialize or whatever, then worship service starts.

I don't walk into the "house of God" expecting that I am somehow worthy to even worship God. I make certain I'm "right with God" before I even bother sitting on a pew.

[Wade12345]

It's not just an Old Testament thing. Both Jesus and Paul in the New Testament forbade Divorce, and they said if you do divorce, the divorced person is FORBIDDEN to remarry anyone other than their original spouse. IF the original spouse refuses to remarry them, they are REQUIRED to remain celibate until one of them DIES before they are then allowed to remarry.

THese "christians" god-man Jesus said that if you divorce and remarry, you are guilty of Adultery.

Jesus also said if a man looks at a woman to lust after her, he is guilty of adultery.

Christians do not even try to obey the commandments in either the New or Old Testament. A casual observer can't tell the difference between Christians and Satanists. IN fact, the divorce rate, murder rate, and rape rates are all higher among Christians than true devil worshipers.

[Wade12345]

That's called the Law of the Kinsman Redeemer, by the way, which the false accuser accused me of not reading the Bible, even though I've read the Bible cover to cover over 100 times and have done two entire Bible Commentary studies too.

[Wade12345]

Just for the sake of argument, in prayer I asked God again whether the Law of Moses was correct, and priests and prophets are REQUIRED to marry a virgin, and God told me "yes". He also confirmed to me that she is REQUIRED BY LAW to prove that she is a virgin.

Widows are supposed to marry the next of kin of their deceased spouse.

Anyone else who remarries is sinning against God because the Bible repeatedly forbids any other form of remarriage. Period. This includes over 75% of people who claim to be "born-again christians".

[Tomisworthless]

Deeeepression

[Wade12345]

I have been clinically diagnosed with primary depression, which means I was born with it, but that's irrelevant. I thought I had it beaten in the past few years, but probably not. Doesn't matter. I thought you considered me a "devil worshiper" because women reject me. If you really believe that, why do you even care what happens to me? You don't. You're just posting to be seen.

[Tomisworthless]

You’re not thinking clearly, and you’re the one posting to be seen.

[Wade12345]

You two falsely accused me of "Devil Worship".

Go to Exodus 20 and Read the Ten Commandments again, kid. "Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbor".

The four-fold penalty for false accusation fo a crime WILL come upon both you and that girl from the other thread. You accused me of "Devil Worship". The Biblical penalty for Devil worship is burning at the stake until dead, followed by eternity in Hell fire.

The two fo you WILL be punished four-fold according to the Law of the God you falsely profess to worship.

[Tomisworthless]

Well you’re wrong since I’m the only one who accused you of such

[Tomisworthless]

God spoke to me and showed me visions but nobody is perfect and I still need to repent for my wrongs I still deal with sin

[Wade12345]

The woman literally accused me of being demon possessed and told me that's why other women reject me. Shbe falsely accused me fo all sorts of things, and so did you.

I demand Trial Before God, and I demand what you owe me. You owe me four death sentences. pay up.

[Wade12345]

If you were a real man of God you wouldn't go around falsely accusing your elders of Devil Worship and you wouldn't go around supporting whores who also falsely accuse their elders of Devil Worship.

You are a blasphemer and a hypocrite, and I demand Trial Before God. You owe me four death penalties and eternity in hell. Pay up.

[Tomisworthless]

Nobody owes you anything. You need to stop yourself in your tracks before you dig yourself a deeper spiritual pit. I’m in no agreement with that female in that thread.

I have every reason to call people out just as you do yourself. And you’re not my elder

[Wade12345]

You need to read the Bbile again, liar. You both owe me the four-fold penalty for false accusation of a crime. i have a God-given right to demand your very soul dies lost in this case, but I only did that to make you aware of that.

You literally owe me any penalty I demand for the rest of eternity, and it says so in the Law of Moses, which I'm sure neither of you hypocrites have ever read.

If I demand your house and cars, God will give it to me and leave both of you in poverty.

If I demand you be enslaved to sex traffickers for the rest of your lives, God will do that to you too.

You both owe me four lifetimes and eternity in Hell each, according to the Law of Moses, which your god-man Jesus admitted the Law would never pass away..

Not only am I your Elder, I'm one of the few True Prophets who ever lived, and you both literally accused me of Devil Worship and Demon Possession.

You are going to be corrected by God Himself about as lovingly as possible simply because you are ignorant and were raised in an ignorant and godless generation.

The whore, on the other hand, knowingly did wrong and refuses to admit it, so God is going to curse her for the next half of her life until she learns the hard way to repent and stop falsely accusing people.

... THUS SAITH THE LORD...

[Wade12345]

Trust me, guy. I have even prayed to God to give you less punishment than He otherwise could give you.

He is literally going to blow both of your favorite places of worship clean off the foundation and into the neighboring lot as evidence that you are wrong and Jesus is wrong too, and I am correct.

[Tomisworthless]

Thank you

[Wade12345]

Let me explain to youhow specific God can be when he tells me the events of the future.

About 20 years ago, when I still was a Christian, before God managed to convince me it was wrong, I was attending a church of about 1500 members not far from where i live now.

One night, I dreamed about an Angel flying through heaven and shouting "The Aliens Are Coming". The next day, the girl I was crushing on had a piece of paper from a photo booth which had the phrase "The Aliens are coming" with her and her neice photographed and goofy alien graphics bordering the photograph. God was warning me that she was "Alien" or "Strange" and to stay away from her. I did not understand yet.

Some time later, God gave me another dream about the same woman. He showed me a Golden Heifer and seven bulls tried to jump the golden heifer, but she turned and gored and destroyed each of them with her horns. Then she turned to me and said, "You better give me a hug," which meant she was "friend zoning me".

The next day, I eye-witnessed her reject all seven of her suiters at church one by one, and then turn and tell me to give her a hug, and reject me too.

She was very bad for me, and very bad for men in general.

IN addition, God made this happen to me and her and them as a parable to tell me to leave that church and leave christianity too forever, because that church turns out to be just like her. They destroy everything they touch, and christians in general do nothing but murder and rape and war and blaspheme and adulterate and now lately homosexualize priests and every other sin which the Law said not to do, so God is most certainly against Christians.