I'm super clumsy and I really struggle due to fact I have dyspraxia and dyslexia. I don't have much confidence and I'm always self doubting myself which leads me to making bigger mistakes because I'm always second guessing myself when in fact I was doing the right thing to begin with.
I get really panicked and nervous doing things for myself but I really try and be a grown up. Even just going on a new bus route can freak me out and I always keep the cash in my hand because I counted it out beforehand and I'll practice what i have to say the entire way there.
I'm also not very good at cooking and I always fuck something up. If it wasn't for my boyfriend I'm pretty sure I'd have set the house on fire by now. His family are very understanding too but I think they secretary thing I'm lazy and useless. His grandparents keep saying I should be the one to do the cooking because I'm a woman (they are in their 90s) even though my boyfriend loves cooking and is a trained chef, his food is crazy good. His grandad gave me a cook book last time I visited which is sweet of him but its kinda also annoying and sexist as much as I get on with my boyfriends grandparents.
I've also been learning the drive on and off since I was 18 and I'm now 25. I feel like I have to rely on everyone else and I'm totally useless.
I can clean and I try really hard to do nice things for others even if I'm not great at it but I usually end up having to ask for help. I'm also always losing stuff and I'm very forgetful and as great as my boyfriend is to me and he tries to understand sometime and even a lot more now we live together he losses his temper with me always fucking up and has shouted at me a couple times which gets me upset. We end up always making up but I do feel deep down It is my fault and it's not fair on him.
He always cares for people in his family and works two jobs and then he has to deal with my fuck ups on top of that. I just wish I could do things right
