Did you ever say something regretful to your S. O?

BlackCat999
My now I suppose ex boyfriend told me last week after his trip that he felt that he no longer wanted to be with me... After bringing me strawberries and hugging me to say hello. He went on this trip to Peruvia for two weeks and we already had a few issues before he left. I usually try talking through issues but lately I've felt that talking didn't resolve anything. So, after a fight, I told him that I'd be taking space from him. We still spoke but saw one another less. I actually felt better during this time and was more and more leaning to getting things to work out again. Before he left for his trip, he informed me that he wanted to take this time for himself. I found this to be a good thing, because I thought he would think about his flaws and maybe needed this time to work on himself. I told him that I was intending to do the same too and as planned I let him have his trip alone without being clingy. I only asked one thing that once a week, he would send me a mail with cute pictures and news. Like a letter but... A bit quicker. He said okay but, both weeks passed and he never even sent one. When his trip ended, he said he drank Ayahuasca and saw life differently, he saw how much love he had in him, and he wanted to share all that... Just not with me as his girlfriend. So, at that point, I am at my breaking point. He came with strawberries and hugs and smiles. I honestly thought that things would get better from there on and maybe he'd tell me how much he cared for me. Or took the decision to be more emotionally available. But it just went downhill, he even asked me why I stayed with him even though I saw he wasn't invested. Honestly... I just felt stupid and realized how much I gave in the relationship. Fast forward, the same night, he comes and tells me how much he loves me and he regrets. He wasn't in his right mind. I told him that we're done but he keeps sending messages. I just need someone to tell me to not go back. I feel dumb even thinking of it.
Did you ever say something regretful to your S. O?
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