Am I asking too much?

Starwitch23
I am in a long distance relationship. I had my birthday few backs. I got gifts from everybody except my boyfriend. He asked me what do I want on my birthday when everyone around me and from far away were gifting me. Then he decides to gift me. It is not that I am materialistic but I would have appreciated if he would have gifted. He earns more than me. He would give heavy amount of money as loans to his friends but he wouldn't gift me. My friends asked me what has he gifted me. I lied to them that he has gifted me because it just doesn't look nice. I would still excuse him because it was a new relationship.

He says that he doesn't want to give me material gifts because he says I would throw it in anger which I never did. And he says people gift to cover up something. I feel that he feels I am running behind his money. If I was running behind his money then I would have dated a guy who is near me. They would spend on me or whoever my parents will chose. I am willing and doing paperwork to a different country so that we can be together. And here, I feel he is looking at me as a gold digger. He would jokingly say to me to set him up with one of my friend to be his sugar baby. I would say tell him to make me a sugar baby so that I would get the money at least. I don't see that he appreciates my effort. Here I spent a large amount of money for his birthday because I wanted to make him special. And we had a fight over this, his money is his and he can spend on whoever he wants to. I felt really bad and a fool to put so much effort over him. Here, I am trying and praying for me to move so that we can be together. I cried because he does not like me enough to re-add me on his instagram and not be spent on.
Am I asking too much?
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