What book should I read that cure depression and make me love myself more and success in my love life?

I grew up in and unhealthy environment. My parents divorce since I was a child. I lived with my mom but my mom just the kind of person that that doesn't care about kids at all. All she care about is money. If I have problem I have no one to turn to. I never get a proper love from my parents. I have to be strong by myself when I grew up.
I have notice a pattern of myself in my dating and love life never success. When I look back at those dead potential and opportunity I felt regret and I always the one to sabotage myself from it and stop it before it begins. I leave after the first red flags. I have high standards of myself in relationships but I think I do it the wrong way. When I look back I think I do it too much that I don't take time to look at them. I think there might be something wrong with me inside. Maybe I'm not love myself enough that's why it's hard for others to love me or I think I love myself too much that I'm not allowed others to treat me badly. I tried my best everyday. I do good for my study and my job but for love life it's never going well. And currently I felt so horrible for always the one destroy a relationship. I felts constantly sad and no energy to do things that I love and I want to have someone to talk to, do things with and to share my life with but not just anyone. I can't think straight right now. I think it's kinda affect my daily life and how I view myself so bad.
What book should I read that cure depression and make me love myself more and success in my love life?
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