Me and my boyfriend have been trying for like 4 months now to make a baby, he really wants this, all he was talking about was getting married and having kids with me but I was already feeling something was wrong and telling him to slow down.
Yesterday I went to the doctor, and as soon as I saw the ultrasound I started crying because I already knew it's not good, and the doctor was so compassionate, they will do more tests but it seems I am infertile. As I was leaving, she told me good luck my dear and this made me cry even more.
My boyfriend picked me up and he asked me what did she say and I told him let's go have coffee and there I told him and showed him everything and again I started crying and he said you are too beautiful to cry and he said I'm irreplacable for him no matter what. I said Why can't anything be the way I want it and he said it doesn't matter, that there are other things. Is it even possible that he really means this?
He wanted to take me out for dinner but I told him I wasn't hungry so he bought us drinks and snacks and took me home and then he just cuddled me. In the morning he went to work and all day he's been texting me I love you and other cute stuff and making plans for two of us for tonight.
I feel so sad but at the same time I am so lucky to have him. I don't even know if it's fair too keep him, I know how much he wants to have kids and it's so hard for me to envision our future life together without having one.
