I am 29 and just now have my very first real girlfriend. I met her on New Years and we made it official several weeks ago. I am her very first boyfriend. She is 26. I was her first kiss too.
I don't know what it is like to be in a real, serious relationship. I am always anxious and fearful of abandonment. I am always paranoid and questioning everything I do and evaluating her responses. I really don't want to lose her.
I feel I am extremely developmentally delayed. I have sought (for years) a woman that has never had a romantic bond with a guy before. I finally found her, and I feel I cannot relax and enjoy the moment.
I get overly worried when she has a certain tone of voice or responds a certain way over text or on the phone. Then, I am preparing myself for the worst.