Did I lose him forever?

Anonymous
OK so I went out with my boyfriend for a year and we broke up six months ago. But for the past six months I've been desperately trying to get him back and prove to him that I'll do anything to make him happy. We still have sex and hook up every other week and his excuse is he "doesn't want to do it with random girls". I just want him back in my arms again and for him to trust me. But he says it won't work because it's too messed up and he has absolutely no faith in the relationship we could have. Now he's saying he isn't even in love with me anymore, yet he still loves me. I've been so traumatized by being rejected every day for the past six months I feel like giving up but I'm so torn. He said we can be friends but no talk so much. And he also said it doesn't bother him if I'm talking to other guys. So, did I lose him forever?
Did I lose him forever?
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